Chapter 73: Taking Responsibility
"And besides?"
"I ended up loving that version of you too, Joa. So you’ll have to take responsibility for that."
When Qiong Xing said it half in jest, Joa burst out laughing and then he leaned in and kissed him deeply.
...
"I ended up loving that version of you too, Joa. So you’ll have to take responsibility for that."
When Joa heard those words, it felt as though something hot rushed through his entire body.
Despite being confessed to so suddenly, Qiong Xing didn’t look surprised at all.
Instead, Qiong Xing pressed him to make a decision with a somewhat mature expression, only to end by smiling teasingly like this.
Take responsibility? Bring it on.
He had thought he would remain alone for the rest of his life.
He couldn’t forget Vita and he didn’t want to forget her either.
Even if he were to take a new mate, he never believed anyone would accept him, someone who’s still deeply affectionate and could not forget his deceased mate.
It wasn’t that he had given up.
He simply had never intended to search in the first place.
And yet, he found that person.
He met him.
Someone who said he loved him even though he still loved Vita.
Someone who said there was no need to forget Vita.
Someone who said he felt gratitude toward Vita who had told him to live.
Was there anyone like this?
Could he possibly let go of someone like him?
Even though he had decided for himself, who else could have understood the loneliness of being alone so deeply?
He never imagined that he would be so strongly drawn to a human, someone he had once hated and once feared.
It didn’t matter that the other person was a man.
It didn’t matter that he’s a human.
Overwhelmed by the joy of finally obtaining what he had longed for, he impulsively stole Qiong Xing’s lips.
"Mm... ah, n... J-Joa..."
The sweet voice that spilled out, the voice that calling his name, made it impossible for him to let go.
"Ah, mm... Joa... ah, mm..."
He violated the inside of Qiong Xing’s small mouth.
He licked around the oral cavity, tangling their tongues together as if he would not even allow them to catch their breath.
There was nothing but joy in the way the body went slack and leaned against him as if it felt good.
More, more...
He pulled Qiong Xing’s small body close without leaving any space between them and continuing to ravage the inside of the mouth.
"J–Joa, u... n, ha, n... n... nngh!"
Sliding his hand around Qiong Xing’s back, he let it slip smoothly from the back to the waist, from the waist down to the hips.
When he traced downward along the cleft through the clothes, the body in his arms trembled with a sharp jerk.
Thinking he might have frightened him, he looked at the face before him, only to be aroused by the flushed skin that showed how good it felt.
Since the mouth was sealed and there were no words of refusal, he took advantage of that and slowly rubbed there, as if grinding against it.
"Mmngh! N, u, n... Joa, Joa, n, Joa, ke, ah, don’t!"
As the hips began to sway, he shoved his hand inside the pants and this time stroked over the underwear.
When the lips parted in surprise, he grabbed the chin and violated them again.
"Mmngh, u... n, ah... n, n, n..."
Confirming that the body had gone limp, he stroked along the cleft, then brushed even lower, near the bud beneath it.
The body that trembled and twitched must already know the pleasure there.
The moment he thought that, the faces of Leander and Elias flashed through his mind, and overcome by intense jealousy, he pushed Qiong Xing down into the flowers.
"Joa? Um, this is as far as... ahh!"
He quickly stripped the lower half, then brought his face close to Qiong Xing’s erect and trembling penis and took it into his mouth.
Qiong Xing who is lifting his hips in pleasure was unbearably dear to him.
He had never taken someone penis into his mouth before, but when he thought of it as Qiong Xing, there was no discomfort at all; rather, it was strange that he even found it delicious.
He licked up his overflowing pre-cum, making his penis wet.
The slurping sounds could be heard as he worked his tongue and he could feel Qiong Xing trembling and twitching inside his mouth in response.
Qiong Xing would probably get angry if he heard it, but the way it fit completely inside his mouth was unbearably cute.
"Don’t! Don’t, don’t, don’t. Joa, Joa, wait ah!"
To the Qiong Xing who kept saying no, he pushed a finger that was slick with pre-cum into his back, making his hips jerk in surprise.
"U... n, w-wait, p-please, wait..."
"...Do you not want it?"
While grabbing Joa’s head, Qiong Xing desperately tried to pull him away.
Thinking for a moment that he might truly dislike it, Joa released Qiong Xing’s penis from his mouth and looked up at Qiong Xing.
"N-no, that’s not it. It’s not that I don’t want it."
"Then it’s fine."
If it wasn’t unwanted, there was no problem, just as he was about to continue, his head was grabbed again.
"No, no! You can’t! We’re outside!"
Apparently it wasn’t the act itself that was the problem, but the location.
But Joa didn’t mind at all and he was even aroused by how Qiong Xing was embarrassed at the thought of someone seeing them.
"If it bothers you, try not to make too much noise. At this rate, someone will come."
"Joa, please, wa—ahh, n!"
When he resumed the act as if telling him not to make any more noise, Qiong Xing desperately covered his mouth with his hand, stifling the voice that was about to spill out from the pleasure.
Believing that they would not be interrupted now, he took Qiong Xing’s penis back into his mouth and he inserted his fingers again toward his back while stirring and probing his inside.