Chapter 179: 179
Kei was scared to make that step forwards, towards the unknown . He was unsure of what might happen if he did continue onwards with this group of people . Will he be able to change? More than that will he be able to survive? Though this world's main trade was war, Kei had no experience in fighting .
He was unsure if he could defend himself, if a problem comes . Based on what he has seen, and the other information he has gathered . All the members of the Mercenary Club except for him, has the ability to defend themselves .
Still if he passes this chance to join this new world, he might regret it later . He knew like everyone else that a war was happening outside the borders, but being a normal citizen Kei never expected to find people related to that world so near him .
He was scared to make a decision, but if he doesn't decide now he might hesitate later and lose the chance to go forward . 'What should I do?'
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While Kei was having his dilemma, Lyner was also having a little dilemma of his own . He waited for the kids to leave the clubroom, before he sat on his bed .
Lyner sighed as for the first time in a long time, he was having difficulty sleeping . "What the hell did I just do? Why did I tell them that?"
Lyner was caught up in the moment awhile ago, which is why he just said a national secret to some students . Worse case scenario if the information is told to anyone else, and the government finds out that they leaked his identity . Worse case scenario, the kids would be terminated, or in the best case scenario they'll only be placed under surveillance .
Well he wasn't worried too much about that, since all of them were tight lipped, and he was sure they understood the significance of this information .
This event got him thinking . It has been years since he last went to the battlefield, and he was already nearing forty . It doesn't seem like he would be able to find that battle he was craving for .
'Is this the end of my adventurers? Lazing around in school and always sleeping? Those kids are moving forward, while I stayed the same for the past few years . Even though I did take that one kid as my apprentice, but . . . '
Lyner was now contemplating what he should do next . He wasn't allowed by the country to leave . He wasn't even allowed to go to the battlefield because of his country . Seeing as he was the last line of defense against foreign invaders, he was a deterrent to the other powers .
It was at this point Lyner felt even more constricted .
'Heh . . . How funny, I used to be the most free of them all . Now I'm the one with the most restrictions . . . I guess I should have taken Anita's offer and became her husband, at least that would have less restrictions . . . '
Lyner the strongest merc of Berdonia sat on his bed feeling sorry for himself . He who was feared all throughout the battlefield was now sitting down on a bed, in a school, as some kids club adviser .
'What the hell happened to me?! When did I care about what the government thinks?! Screw the government, if they get in my way then I just annihilate them . I'll do what I want! When I want to!'
Lyner was feeling fired up as he thought about this, but then that fire burnt out .
'Now that I think about it, what is it that I want to do? I can't fight the other SS rank mercs, since that could start another all out war . Even I'm not that stupid to do that . . . I could finish off old man Tang, but that could prove to be boring . . . Oh, this time I could propose to Anita, since last time she was the one who proposed marriage it could be fun to see her reaction if I did it . . . I guess I'll just put that in the back, since that could make most of the Southern Union men hate me . . . What else could I do . . . '
Lyner sat there on his bed continuing to think, what other things he could do to amuse himself .
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While Lyner was thinking about what to do next, Alex was having his own internal problems as well . Sayaka and Lyner had told the others what they truly were . This made Alex feel a bit guilty .
Even though he had no obligation to tell the others he was a merc, also they didn't even asked about it, so why should he go out of his way to tell it . Still it somehow felt like he wronged them .
'Why am I even thinking about this? What merit is there to telling them the truth? . . . There is none, so then why should I do it?'
Alex couldn't concentrate in class at the moment, which the teacher noticed, but didn't bother to point out . Since based on past experiences pointing it out would only lead to him shaming himself as a teacher .
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Oliver was also having some thoughts about what happened recently . Not only was he dealing with the idea of his memories being false, but now he finds out that Sayaka was an assassin, and their club adviser Lyner was a SS rank merc .
He had accepted their situation, but it was still hard for him to fully take in the situation .
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Emily had accepted the situation regarding Lyner quite easily, since Alex had already briefed her about it before . The only thing that surprised her awhile ago was the news that Sayaka was an assassin .
'Still the two of them decided to say who they truly were in front of the others . I wonder if Alex is thinking of doing the same thing? . . . Hmmm, if he decides to tell, then I guess I'll tell as well . I wonder if he tells, will he also tell about Lilitth? I hope he doesn't, I would hate to see the others treat Lilitth differently after hearing she's an artificial human . . . Still they did accept Sayaka, so why not Lilitth? . . . No matter, I'll just wait and see what Alex decides and just follow his lead . '
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Rachel too had many thoughts about the news she recently heard, which made her question if the others were hiding something as well . Alex and Emily obviously felt like they were hiding something . Kei even though he acts like that, he could also be hiding something . If he could hide something, how about Oliver?
When Rachel got to that point in her thoughts, she stopped . If she keeps on thinking everybody is hiding something, she might actually suffer from paranoia .
'What does it matter? Everyone has secrets that they don't tell, I just need to be patient and maybe just like what Sir Lyner did they might feel like opening up . '