Bi Xia was startled, "You have a sister?"
Qin Zhan smiled faintly, "Yes, I have a sister, her name is Qin Qing."
"Oh?" Bi Xia’s eyes widened, "Shuimu Zhanqinghua? Xie Hun’s ’Travels to the Western Pond’?"
Looking down at Bi Xia, Qin Zhan smiled and kissed Bi Xia, "So smart!"
"My Zhan, sister’s Qing, both come from that line. In the Qin Family, whether in the family on the side of Country A, we have seen all sorts of murkiness, and mother hoped that my sister and I could remain clear and bright, not tainted by those dark impurities."
"But..." His phoenix eyes suddenly darkened, devoid of any emotion, "I still ended up going in the opposite direction of what mother hoped."
Feeling a pang in his heart, Bi Xia tightly furrowed his brow and grasped Qin Zhan’s hand. Qin Zhan shook his head at Bi Xia and continued, "Qin Qing and I were like that, one in Country A, one in Country C, and I was always raised by the old man."
"Being an illegitimate child in our kind of big family is too common, and it’s also common for people to come asking to be entered into the family register, but because I, the legitimate eldest son, existed, the old man felt guilty towards my mother, so he never agreed."
"Qin Qing is a few years older than me, just like you and Bi Xiaoyuan, both very protective of their younger brother. But every time Qin Qing came back to see me, I found that it seemed like only she was following the direction mother hoped for, clear and transparent, you could see what she was thinking in just one look. While I,..."
"At that time, I thought, just let Qin Qing be like this, in any case, I could protect them then."
"But... on the day Qin Qing came back, we had a car accident," Qin Zhan’s expression was indifferent, his tone devoid of any intonation, "Qin Qing shielded me with her body, I survived, Qin Qing died on the spot."
"Fourth brother..."
Qin Zhan slowly lowered his head to look at Bi Xia, his phoenix eyes lifeless, he gently caressed Bi Xia, "It’s okay, it’s good to say it out loud, I’ve buried these things inside for a long time, maybe talking about it will make it better."
"I still remember what Qin Qing said to me back then..."
"She said... A Zhan, I can’t be with you in the future, you have to take good care of yourself, you know?"
Take care of yourself, protect mom, sorry, as a daughter, as an elder sister, I can no longer stay by their sides...
Qin Qing smiled at him, telling him to be strong, to become stronger. Qin Qing also said--
’I’m sorry A Zhan, sister is finally free, without you all protecting me, I couldn’t stand those dark days, it was really... too painful, I’m sorry, for leaving everything to you, I’m sorry... my brother...’
Taking a deep breath, Qin Zhan hung his head, his fringe covering those phoenix eyes.
"The first person I killed was one of Qin Zhongyang’s mistresses, she was still pregnant with Qin Zhongyang’s child, but just one shot, they all went to accompany Qin Qing," Qin Zhan hugged Bi Xia, "I only have a few precious people left, and she took Qin Qing for the sake of entering the Qin Family... so I fulfilled her wish, letting her die at the hands of the future head of the Qin Family."
"After Qin Qing died, mother was severely devastated, she divorced Qin Zhongyang, and then I went to Country A with her. Later, because Old Sir Qin’s health was deteriorating and the Qin Family faced internal and external threats, at Old Sir Qin’s request, I came back."
"I can disregard the Qin Family, disregard Qin Zhongyang, but I cannot disregard the old man. You could say, when I was young, the only reason I was able to survive was all because of the old man."
"So, if it weren’t for Old Sir Qin in the Qin Family," Qin Zhan’s voice was cold, "I wouldn’t stay in the Qin Family, and the Qin Family wouldn’t even exist in Beijing."