Hearing Bi Xia’s words, Xu Renfei was slightly stunned, then curled his lips, "Of course, no objection."
"If An Yi really harbors thoughts he shouldn’t, then everything... as you please."
Raising an eyebrow, Bi Xia laughed, "I didn’t expect the Head of the Xu Family to be so straightforward."
"Hey," Xu Renfei rolled his eyes, "Don’t call me that, it’s annoying. If you call me, just use Feixiaofei, it’s easier on the ears."
Smiling silently, Bi Xia lightly touched the earrings on his earlobe, "You’re just a masochist."
Xu Renfei shrugged without a word.
Bi Xia suddenly asked, "How do you feel?"
"..." Xu Renfei’s eyes darkened, and after a while, he slowly said, "Not too great."
"It’s only now that I realize how hard it was for Grandma to hold up such a family on her own..."
Xu Renfei looked up at the ceiling, "I always knew it wasn’t easy to be the head of the family, but it’s also quite impressive."
"I admire Fourth Brother and Big Brother the most."
"When Fourth Brother came back, he earned the title of the youngest magnate, making even a large family like the Qin Family show him respect. At such a young age, he took over the Qin Family. Although he is still the heir, all matters of the Qin Family are now handled by him, and the people of the Qin Family are very afraid of him."
"And although Big Brother hasn’t been named the future head of the Feng Family, he doesn’t fight for it. Despite that, within the Feng Family, his voice carries the highest weight among the younger generation, even equal to that of the uncles."
"Their successes aren’t due to some powerful background, but because they possess such strong abilities that people willingly submit to them."
After a pause, Xu Renfei continued, "You may not know this, but the Xu Family started as just a small family, and it was Grandma and Grandpa who developed it. They worked hard their entire lives to make the Xu Family recognized as a ’family’ in Beijing."
"After Grandpa died, Grandma didn’t intend to take over as Family Head, but who knew my mother went mad and was sent to a mental hospital by my father. Grandma was worried that if my father took over the Xu Family, it would be even harder for me, so she accepted the position."
"After becoming the head of the family, I discovered many unknown flaws within the Xu Family and the duplicity among the so-called legitimate kin. I kept thinking, all these years, seeing her nephews and children pretend to be obedient on the surface while plotting against each other for the Head’s position, how heartbroken Grandma must have been..."
Xu Renfei opened his mouth, his eyes lowered in sorrow, his entire being hidden in darkness, sounding very helpless, "Little Jiu’er... what should I do? I’m starting to doubt whether I truly have the ability to bear the Xu Family responsibility... What if I fail and disappoint Grandma and all of you?"
"I don’t have the skills of Fourth Brother and Big Brother, nor the boldness and determination of you and Xiao Wu. Instead, all I can do is sing and play tricks, I..."
"Xu Renfei."
The boy’s voice was cold and clear, calm but incredibly firm, "You can do it."
Xu Renfei was stunned, "Little Jiu’er..."
Bi Xia raised his hand and gently brushed away the hair on his forehead, "I said, you can do it."
"You know, no one starts knowing everything," the boy said slowly, "You see how powerful Fourth Brother and Big Brother are, but you haven’t seen what they had to sacrifice to become so strong."
"You say Xiao Wu and I are bold and determined, but that’s because you don’t know what we went through before. If we weren’t bold and didn’t fight, there wouldn’t be a Bi Xia or Chu Wu."
"For what you mentioned, we have all put in efforts, experienced confusion and disappointment, but we all persisted, which is why we are who we are now."
"So..." Bi Xia smiled gently, his voice softening a bit, "Doubting yourself at this time will only add to your burden. Since Fourth Brother and your Grandma chose you, it means you certainly can do it."
"Even if not now, who knows what will happen in the future?"
"What do you think, Feixiaofei?"
After a long while, Xu Renfei’s lips curled up, "Yeah, Bi Xiaojiu."