The warmth that came from above her head provided Yao Mingyue, whose body trembled, with a sliver of comfort.
Yao Mingyue pressed her reddened lips together, her eyes filled with bitterness, "I know, I know everything, but I really can't live without you. I know I have issues, but I also know that even if I really got better, I still couldn't live without you, Xu Musen. You can say that I haven't realized the truth about myself, but you can't deny that I like you.
It might not be as pure as you said, but I only know, I only like you, in the past, now, and in the future!"
As Yao Mingyue spoke, she looked at Xu Musen and couldn't help but hug him tightly, this warm embrace.
It made the cold night seem to welcome its last bit of warmth.
But she understood Xu Musen; since he had made this choice, she knew she couldn't win him back today.
She had spoken firmly just now, yet she couldn't help crying, her tears soaking through Xu Musen's clothes.
She held him tightly because she knew, once she let go, she might really never have another chance again.
He said he always took care of her, but that was only as childhood friends.
Once her proudest identity, but now she felt it was more like a curse.
Since ancient times, could it be that childhood friends never win against a fateful encounter from heaven...
This layer of identity that had always made her proud had now become a Milky Way lying between them, an enormous river they couldn't cross.
The river breeze came with a bone-chilling coldness.
Xu Musen wanted to push her away, but Yao Mingyue's grip was very tight.
"We should each start our new lives now. You're tired today, go back and rest early,"
Xu Musen didn't know what to say to her. At this time, he could only wait for time to slowly fade everything away.
Yao Mingyue was in his embrace, she didn't speak, at this moment, she was unable to say a word.
It was as if someone had brutally carved out a piece of her heart, she understood everything, but she really couldn't accept it.
She slowly let go of Xu Musen, but her eyes were already vacant, as if all the light had been drawn from them.
She numbly looked at Xu Musen, her lips trembling dryly, the type of pain that felt like unraveling and peeling away, almost numbing her breath.
The word was squeezed from her lips.
Her steps wavered. Xu Musen silently watched her for a while, then he turned to pick up a bag of clothes they had bought today from a nearby bench.
The girl's voice, already devoid of any emotional fluctuation, rang out.
Xu Musen turned his head, and in that instant, his eyes suddenly widened.
There was Yao Mingyue, already teetering on the railing at the river's edge, a scene all too familiar.
But this time, Yao Mingyue's face was ashen. Looking at Xu Musen, her eyes bloodshot, she revealed a tragic smile, one of her canines biting her lip as if trying to draw blood...
Xu Musen shouted as he threw away the bag in his hand and rushed toward her.
But Yao Mingyue just gave a pitiful smile. Desperation, resentment, and realization tangled in her bloodshot eyes.
She looked at Xu Musen charging towards her.
Just like in their childhood, whenever she faced danger, he would always be the first to rush over and protect her, Brother Musen.
Childhood friends, oh, it was fate decreed by the heavens, the best gift bestowed by the gods.
But if one day this gift was taken away, it would be pain akin to having one's marrow sucked out.
It was also because of their status as childhood friends that they gained a lot, yet it seemed they also missed out on a lot...
At this moment, she thought, if they weren't childhood friends, if they could also have an encounter , then could it be, their outcome now would be different?
Yao Mingyue's lips curled into a complex, meaningful smile as she looked at Xu Musen, who had come to face her.
"If there is a next life, I definitely won't be childhood friends with you..."
The wind blew, and the sound of splashing water rose…