Chapter 740: Chapter 739: Overwhelmed with Guilt_1 Chapter 740: Chapter 739: Overwhelmed with Guilt_1 He squinted at his apprehensive wife and couldn’t help but laugh out loud.
“What are you laughing at?” Nan Fei asked with annoyance.
“I’m laughing at you!” Huo Beijiang took a puff of his cigarette, his mood gradually calming down, and spoke in a lazy tone, “Laughing that you love me and rush over as soon as you hear something is wrong with me. Do you remember how you reacted when you saw me a year ago?”
Nan Fei was thinking, ‘What’s gotten into him today.’
Even though she thought that, she tried hard to remember, but the more she remembered, the more guilty she felt. A year ago, she just wanted to stay as far away from him as she could, even though she knew he was her best choice, but the fear in her heart was something she could never forget.
She remembered the small grove behind the village where he came looking for her, and she set the ground rules for their relationship.
A light bulb suddenly flashed in Nan Fei’s brain, and she understood why he had been holding himself back. It was likely because of the ground rules she set a year ago, which he took to heart. Even when they registered their marriage, her attitude was ambiguous.
He was afraid she would regret it!
“Remember!” Nan Fei said heavily. She finally recognized the problem between them. Her treatment of Huo Beijiang was still causing him hurt. They were registered, but they neither acted as a couple nor as husband and wife.
Their past relationship was unusual. No other regular couple or married couple acted .
She was not prepared to be his wife at all. The only reason they got married in secret was that she wanted to counter Lu Dongxin’s despicable tactics.
Because she knew only if they were legally married would he resolutely cancel the engagement once he returned to Imperial City, even disregarding his grandfather’s last wish, and reject the Lu family’s marriage alliance.
She’d used him, letting him sacrifice so much, yet she wasn’t even willing to fulfill the basic duties of a wife.
She had made it so obvious, and he must know.
Yet he never uttered a word of complaint and went along with her…
All these messy thoughts suddenly rose from the depths of her heart. They swept over her all at once, leaving her unprepared.
Nan Fei suddenly clutched her temples in disbelief. She couldn’t believe she would do such a thing.
Was this what love was? What was wrong with her love?
It was full of calculations, and she never gave anything!
“You used to be very different from how you are now!” Huo Beijiang flicked the ash off his cigarette, sighed. He knew what he wanted, what he didn’t want, what his competitors were thinking and what the person he cared about cared about.
He knew that in Nan Fei’s heart, he was never at the top. Not even among the top three, which made him insanely jealous. He looked at her cousin, small aunt, even her parents, and he couldn’t stand any of them.
Yet he had so many complaints and he couldn’t vent them. He had to fulfill his responsibilities.
All for the love of her and everything related to her.
“Are you tired? You must be tired from loving me, right?” Nan Fei suddenly asked. Her voice had lost its earlier shyness and become calm.
In her tone, there was a trembling she was trying hard to control, because she knew. It must be exhausting. How could it not be? If she put herself in his shoes, she would also find it tiring.
She was like a dead piece of wood, never understanding what true love was.