“Hey! How could you take Gu Yan away?” Looking at Mo Yichen and Gu Yan’s backs, Manla shook her head helplessly.
Mo Yichen drove to a block restaurant.
“What do you want to eat?”
“I have no appetite.”
However, Gu Yan’s stomach purred.
If Mo Yichen didn’t remind Gu Yan, she still didn’t realize that she hadn’t eaten all day. However, even though she didn’t admit that she was hungry, her stomach said the opposite, which made both of them felt embarrassed.
Mo Yichen refrained from laughing and broke the embarrassed atmosphere.
“Since you’ve given me no option, I’ll choose one by myself.”
In a short while, they arrived at a Chinese restaurant. The simple and normal restaurant was decorated with unique designs inside. Gu Yan couldn’t help looking around as she entered.
Sitting opposite Gu Yan, Mo Yichen watched her looking everywhere like a curious child.
Noticing that Mo Yichen was watching her, Gu Yan looked away and played with the napkin on the table.
Mo Yichen called the waiter over, ordered a few dishes, and then looked at Gu Yan with his arms crossed.
“Don’t look at me like that.”
Gu Yan finally couldn’t stand it, and spoke to Mo Yichen.
“I’m just wondering why you are unwilling to tell me everything about yourself. Am I not even a stranger in your heart?”
Mo Yichen squinted his eyes, and tried to hide his anger.
“I don’t think it’s necessary to tell you. Even if I do so, what will you do next? You ask her to behave and then she gets me into trouble again? When does this cycle end? I’m too occupied with my work every day to deal with other stuffs.”
Her words sounded like heartless and determined. However, she never dared to look at Mo Yichen. She shrugged just like she was talking to herself.
Mo Yichen forced a smile to hear that.
“So, since I told you that I wanted to live with you and protect you, you didn’t even think about it but just negated my suggestion directly?”
“Yes.”
Gu Yan responded without hesitation.
“Look me in the eye and say it again.”
“…Yes.”
They stared at each other in a deadlock. Neither of them would like to give in.
At this time, the waiter came to serve.
Simple Chinese food including four dishes and one soup made Gu Yan refreshing.
“Let’s enjoy the meal.”
Mo Yichen picked up some food for Gu Yan with his chopsticks.
Then Gu Yan began to eat silently.
Mo Yichen was not in mood to eat. He just observed Gu Yan for a long time.
“Gu Yan, why are you unwilling to be with me?”
Mo Yichen’s voice became soft suddenly. Gu Yan paused as she was trying to have some soup.
Gu Yan raised her head and found Mo Yichen was wearing a serious look. The more serious Mo Yichen was, the more she wanted to escape.
“I…” Gu Yan put down the stuff in her hands and wiped her mouth.
“I’m sorry, Mo Yichen. I am not ready to start a new relationship now. I feel very bad in the current state. How can I accept your love?”
“Just as you know, everyone is looking for my falling, which means I have to word hard every day and I don’t want to rely on others. Although I don’t care about the judgments from others, I still want to be recognized by others.”
“Why do you care about others’ judgments? That would make you exhausted.”
“Well, I want to prove it to myself, too. I just wonder what kind of life I could live without men. If I live under your protection, I’m still the old me. Nothing changed.”
“You still have no sense of security.”
Mo Yichen finally learned why she’s being so tough. Feeling distressed for her working hard, he felt distressed, Mo Yichen stretched out his hands to hold her, but Gu Yan dodged sensitively.
“The real sense of security is only given by oneself, is it right? Besides, there are too many obstacles between us. At least, in consideration of my present situation, I have no confidence to eliminate them one by one. Chen Qian could get me into trouble today. What about others in the future?”
Gu Yan forced a smile, “I’m quite practical now. The fairy tale dreams have already been broken. I’m not qualified to have wild dreams.”
Mo Yichen listened to Gu Yan’s words quietly. Although it seemed to be a refusal, Mo Yichen could still understand Gu Yan’s helpless feelings.
“Okay, I will wait for you.”
Mo Yichen finally replied.
“You must be exhausted today. Let me send you home now.”
When Gu Yan was still thinking about how to refuse him euphemistically, Mo Yichen had already stood up and wore his coat.
“Oh.”
Gu Yan took a deep breath, then she followed Mo Yichen to leave.
In the car, neither of them said a word.
Gu Yan looked at the scenery outside the car and felt complicated.
Looking at the scenery outside going backwards at a rapid speed, Gu Yan wished the car would slow down.
She thought, “Then I could stay with Mo Yichen for a long time. Perhaps this time, I really hurt him.”
Gu Yan wanted to be with Mo Yichen inside. However, she worried about too many things.
The car slowly stopped at the door of Gu Yan’s house.
When Gu Yan was about to unfasten her seat belt, Mo Yichen held her hands suddenly.
“I mean what I said to you, and I know that there are many scruples in your heart.”
The sudden touch made Gu Yan want to pull out her hands subconsciously.
“Don’t move.” Mo Yichen held Gu Yan’s hands tightly.
“Let me finish. I will wait for you to adjust your status, and I will support you too. In the meantime, I hope you won’t refuse me all the time. Just be positive to our future, okay?”
Mo Yichen’s eyes seemed to be full of stars, which caught Gu Yan’s attention for a moment.
Gu Yan almost nodded and agreed with him.
“Hoot.” At this time, a car behind hit the horn, which broke the atmosphere.
“Well, I should go. Thanks for your dinner today.”
Gu Yan pulled her hands out, ran to her house hastily and shut the door.
Looking at Gu Yan’s receding figure, Mo Yichen didn’t start the car and drove away until he saw the light turned on.
Gu Yan leaned her back against the door and took a deep breath until the car drove further. Thinking that she had almost accepted Mo Yichen’s love, Gu Yan shook her head vigorously.