Chapter 505: Dream
Translator: Lonelytree
I felt that I was a particularly pretentious person. I didn’t know where those bad feelings came from.
Banxia wouldn’t act like me. Banxia was very happy every day. Even when she was packing my things, she would skip around, humming a song.
“Banxia, why are you so happy?”I couldn’t help but ask her.
I was reading a love novel. It was very good, but I couldn’t ignore the happiness radiating off Banxia.
Banxia placed one of my aqua blue dresses into the luggage. She turned her head to look at me with a face full of joy. “No reason. Miss, why are you so unhappy?”
I shook my head. “Because I don’t know what’s there to be happy about.”
Banxia continued to fold my clothes and put them in the luggage. Her voice was filled with joy. “My dear Miss, it’s not easy to survive. Why not live every day with happiness?”
I looked at her and realized that I had no way to refute her.
Banxia straightened her back and pressed her short hair behind her ears. Her expression turned serious, and she said carefully, “Miss, so what if you have no memories of the past? You can’t be unhappy because of that. You don’t have a memory of the past, but that doesn’t mean you won’t make new memories in the future. If you’re always unhappy because of the past, how can you move on to the future?”
Seeing how serious and careful she was, I couldn’t help but smile. I nodded. “You do make sense.”
Banxia’s eyes immediately lit up. “Miss, if you ask me, amnesia is not so bad. Look at me. I have to live with my past life. It is so difficult. I can’t wait to forget all those hardships and live happily ever after. That’s why I envy you so much.”
I couldn’t help but tease her. “Isn’t it because you remember the hardships of the past that you’re so happy now?”
Banxia thought for a moment before her face fell. “You’re right!”
She stomped her feet. “Miss, you know that I’m not good with words. I’m only trying my best to cheer you up. Can’t you give me some face? Why must you expose me?”
I laughed out loud. “Alright, alright. Thank you, Banxia. You do make sense. Amnesia has its perks too. I should enjoy its perks and stop being so hung up about it.”
Banxia was happy. “That’s right. My dear Miss, you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen. You are what I imagine an angel would look like. This is such a blessing. That is one thing to be happy about, right?”
I sighed. “You’re right. You’re always right.”
Banxia continued packing.
My gaze swept across the book in my hand. ‘Once having seen the best, the rest is not worthwhile. Apart from you, I can’t fall in love with anyone else in this life.’
These were the words that the male protagonist said to the female protagonist. They had gone through all kinds of hardships. After being separated for so many years, they finally met again.
My heart was inexplicably sad.
I had a feeling that I owed someone that exact sentiment.
In my lost memory, there must be someone very, very important.
I lost him.
I often woke up in the middle of the night with heart palpitations and chills. I cried in my dreams. How sad must I be to cry in my sleep?
However, I still couldn’t remember anything. I couldn’t even remember my dream.. Sleep was like a submersion into a dark ocean for me.