Olivia’s pulse quickened even more, she felt like her heart was about to explode as Joseph said it.
"You know you can never step over that." Joseph interrupted her. "You can never accept the death of your parents. It will always be something that weighs down a person, a darkness, that’s what it is. Weeks, months of despair, suffering on your own. You fight with it, trying to accept that they’re gone, but deep inside..." He pointed to his heart. "You will never accept it, that they are gone." He leaned forward. "I never accepted what they did to me, you know. That little hope was always inside me, though I lied about it, tried to push it down, like ’no, they can’t be doing this to me, what have I done..."
He leaned back, staying silent for a brief moment as if lost in thought, maybe... and it really seemed like he was completely lost.
"Yeah... well I totally forgot the point I wanted to make with it." He laughed. "Fuck, I might truly have a mental issue... but don’t worry, I’m not going to touch your family or you. I just wanted to say that this whole shit you’re in, it’s nothing. You feel like you’ve betrayed yourself, but no... you did good, Olivia. You listened to your heart, your own justice. I love you for that. I will love you till death for it. I truly appreciate you."
He leaned forward once again, but this time he gently took her hand... in a warm way, like he wanted to comfort her. It was such an unbelievable moment for her because she actually felt it. She felt Joseph’s warmth as he held her cold, trembling hand... It somehow felt comforting, like a lifeline.
How strange was that... a man with all his darkness could give comfort to the same woman he shot.
"People always say time heals, but it doesn’t. Time just teaches you how to carry the weight better. You learn to live with the scars, even if they never really fade. Some days you’ll feel like you’re drowning in all the pain, like it’s going to swallow you whole and that’s okay. It’s okay to feel broken, to scream inside, to want to give up." His grip tightened on her hand, not in a hurtful way, but more like a caring one. "But if you do that, you lose a part of yourself that’s still fighting to survive. So don’t give up on yourself, Olivia. Not now, not ever. Because somewhere beneath all that mess, there’s still hope. And as fucked up as life gets, hope’s the only thing that keeps us from falling apart completely. I’m not telling you this to pity you. I’m telling you because I know what it feels like to be lost, to feel like you don’t matter anymore. But you do. You matter more than you realize." Joseph finished his motivational speech and just and he let go of her hands and sat there calmly.
Olivia, on the other hand, just blinked in total confusion, struggling to process what had just happened. "Y-You... you fucking came here to comfort me, you psychopathic fuck...?" Her voice was shaky, and even she chuckled at the sheer absurdity of the situation.
"Yeah." He answered straight away, looking at her still confused face. "Well, my first plan was to threaten you, to say I would behead your entire family, your dog, your cat, your bird, even your fucking goldfish if you had one. But then I thought about you... how you had been kind to me, at least to some extent. You wanted to help me, and you cared about me... so I changed my plans."
"To comfort me...?" She asked back, her mouth slightly opened.
"Everybody needs an emotional partner, Olivia, and I’m here for you... of course, in a way where I give you something, and you give me something... like doing 69. So yeah, I tried my best not to, you know, threaten you, and I still don’t want to. So let’s just help each other out."
Yeah, now she totally understood what Fian was talking about... that it’s really true that every one of those Cassians is fucking rotten from the moment they’re born... like they’re the punishment for the world’s sins, or something fucking diabolic like that... and she actually believed him. Yeah, she got manipulated and tricked the moment she touched his files.
An agent who was outstanding in her class, even topping the male agents... an agent who had been tortured, interrogated, and had done many things, got tricked by this motherfucker.
"Yeah, you know, it’s pleasing for you and for me too, we can do it at any time of the day and I want to do it with you." Joseph said, and she just laughed at it.
She truly laughed out of the whole situation... Joseph really came just to mess with her, and there was nothing she could do with him or against him. He was on the blacklist, and of course, he was Cassian, the Don of the family, and his threats were real, especially considering what he had done in the city.
Though there was one thing she could try.
"So you want to lick my pussy?" She asked back as she looked at him with a smile, though her question stunned down Joseph for the first time during this whole insane situation, but he catched it.
"You can’t manipulate me, darling, but good try. You know it’s too obvious, this switches in your personality and behaviour, like how an agent would do it." Joseph laughed as he stood up. "Second, no, I won’t eat you down there... I don’t want to taste an agent."
"What if I taste good?" She pushed further. She wanted to see how he would react, how he’d respond, to find out if she had something to hold over him. Besides, she remembered what he had said to her in prison, he said he wanted to do coke and fuck all day when he got out.
"Huh... I learned to not get attached to women, to not get attached to a bitch... though you’re not a bitch, just a desperate agent that wants to get something out of me... what do you want to see? That I say yes and you can get close to me?" He shook his head. "Olivia, you are more than a dirty little bitch, that’s why you will work with me now on. So when you get out of this hospital, then I want a list with the names of the most influential gangsters."
Yeah, her plan collapsed within a second.
"Why are you surprised darling?" Joseph laughed. "You just wanted me to eat you, and now you’re surprised by this... oh Olivia, don’t be dumb. Get me the names, if not, I will truly eat you out then kill you along with your whole family." He turned. "Goodbye, darling, and eat the chocolate it’ll help with your emotions." He waved his hand and left Olivia in the room, completely shattered and confused about what the fuck had happened in these 15 minutes.
Now Joseph wasn’t just on the blacklist, but she was on his side too...