Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Even when Mu Xiaoxiao was forced to face him, she turned her eyes away from him as she just didn’t want to meet his eyes.
Yin Shaojie had never felt so much nervousness before. Ever since he was young, he could get whatever he desired, and there was nothing that didn’t come smoothly to him. There was nothing like this moment, where he was almost wanting to plead for her to believe him and to not leave him.
“Are you still unwilling to look at me? Do you intend to never look at me again? Do you intend to forget me and never return to China?”
His voice gradually became cold as if chilliness was emanating from his entire being.
Mu Xiaoxiao’s lips moved as she finally started speaking, her voice slightly hoarse as she said,” Yin Shaojie… For the past two days, I’ve been thinking about whether I truly know you.”
Was it because of your assertive kiss that created a delusion in me that made me think that I liked you?
Liking someone should not be such a superficial matter.
But it should only happen after one got to understand another deeply.
That was how she used to think. She would yearn for when she fell in love and fantasize about understanding and accommodating each other with the person she loved, unlike other people who would get into misunderstandings, quarrels, and even breakups.
But she now realized that she was wrong. It turned out that you can’t always be getting your way in love. Love was too indiscernible a thing that you may not even be able to tell whether it was real or not.
It was just like how she was now, when she could no longer tell whether Yin Shaojie truly liked her anymore.
If he liked her, then shouldn’t he be unwilling to have her suffer?
But the one who had caused her the greatest hurt was him!
And where was he when she was at her worst? He was hanging around with another girl!
If he really liked her, then he shouldn’t have gotten close to another girl.
Just having doubts about whether Yin Shaojie really liked her pained her inside as if there was someone using a knife, cruelly cutting at her heart.
Suddenly she had the urge to ask him if he really liked her or if just his flirtatiousness had led to this?
But she was afraid that the answer would break her heart.
Having heard her, Yin Shaojie suddenly quietened down, his dark eyes fixated on her face.
He said in a self-deprecating manner with a deep, low voice, “Indeed, you don’t understand me, Xiaoxiao.”
Mu Xiaoxiao jolted, and she felt cold.
See, he said it himself that I don’t understand him.
So whatever that she had seen was not the real him, right?
Then, what kind of person was the real him?
All that talk about finding his one true love must have been just a lie. He’s simply unfaithful. Men… they are all flirts.
However, Mu Xiaoxiao could not understand that even if he wanted to play around, given their long-time relationship from since they were young, he shouldn’t have played her!
Suddenly, Mu Xiaoxiao was smiling pathetically, and she started to feel cold inside.
So what did their long-time relationship mean to him?
Was she the only one who cherished their relationship? Was she the only one who cherished the friend who grew up with her?
She had treated him like family. Though she would throw tantrums at him occasionally, wasn’t that the way it should be? It was only toward family that she could not help herself but throw a fit because she could always rely on her family to accommodate her and not get angry.
So was she wrong? Was she too idealistic?