“Yes. I dreamt that I fell into the Fire of Hell, and was horribly, painfully burnt. I don’t know who did that to me. Tell me, who did that to me? What did I do wrong to deserve such a punishment?”
There was nothing but sadness in Gu Bailu’s watery eyes as she pitifully asked Feng Qingtian the question.
Exactly who was that man?
“Lulu, it’s already over. You just had a dream.” Feng Qingtian stroked her back and soothed her.
Gu Bailu shook her head. “No, that wasn’t a dream, but something from the past, and I’m still suffering divine retribution because of it. It’s not over yet. No!”
“It is. Everything is over when the divine retribution is over. You won’t be hurt again. I’ll always be there for you.”
Dazed, Gu Bailu looked at him. “What if it was you who hurt me? Tell me, have you ever hurt me? Will you?”
Feng Qingtian lowered his head and kissed her. “Silly girl, I’ve always cherished you. Why would I hurt you?”
“Is that so?” Gu Bailu clearly saw the unnatural light that flashed in his eyes when he kissed her.
Though he hid it well, Gu Bailu still saw it.
“I want my memories back. I’ve been feeling awful these few days. I think something is about to happen.”
Gu Bailu felt that the peace during these days was like the calm before a storm. Not a day went by when she didn’t feel on edge.
The fright from the divine retribution and the sorrow of Feng Qingtian abandoning her were still in her head.
She wasn’t free of the emotions yet.
Even she hated herself for it. If this went on, she wouldn’t be able to avenge her parents or rescue her master.
Without them, she felt that she was just like floating duckweed, lonely and helpless.
She shouldn’t be feeling this way, because Feng Qingtian was right by her side.
“I want to give them to you too, but Yan Anchun is alive only because of that part of your soul. If it’s taken back, she’ll die instantly.” Feng Qingtian sighed.
He understood how it felt to not have one’s memories; he had been uninterested in and confused about everything.
Gu Bailu had been able to live so carefree only because she didn’t know that she had lost her memories.
Now that she did, she was at a loss as well. She was curious about the past and wanted to know what happened. The anticipation would make her uncomfortable.
However, her memories really couldn’t be returned to her yet.
Feng Qingtian held her in his arms apologetically. “Don’t be scared, okay? I’ll be there for you, whatever happens.”
Gu Bailu simply nestled into his arms and didn’t say anything.
If I really believe you and count on you for everything, wouldn’t I die a miserable death if you fail to deliver your promise?
Gu Bailu was still in a daze when she woke up the next day.
After breakfast, Qian’er came over with her tea, which smelled good.
She said with a smile, “Do you want the lord to check first if it’s poisoned?”
Gu Bailu knew that she was only kidding. She said, “Don’t let him hear that, or he might kick you out of this house. He wasn’t very happy yesterday.”
Gu Bailu could tell that Feng Qingtian wasn’t fond of Qian’er.
Or to be honest, he didn’t like any other woman except for her.