Chapter 709: Chapter 709: You look cool when you’re angry!
She had previously mentioned that she had a psychological trauma, which sometimes led her into a dark state.
But she had never shown this bad side to Tong Sanlang.
Thinking back to that time, a wave of regret washed over her.
On that occasion she had vehemently pointed her finger at Tong Sanlang and told him off, realizing how awful she must have looked.
“I was rather ugly then, wasn’t I…”
Tong Sanlang was taken aback for a moment, then shook his head and said, “No, you were not ugly.”
“Really not ugly?” Qiao Xiaomai looked at him, unconsciously biting her lip.
“Not ugly.” Tong Sanlang repeated, nodding his head seriously.
“Actually, I don’t wish to be … I am aware of my flaw, but my personality… it formed during stimulating circumstances. So when dealing with situations, I tend to flare up easily.”
When she was ten, that was the crucial time for the formation of worldviews and personality.
But from that time onwards, she had been fighting with her stepmother and uncaring father. At that young age, she didn’t know any better and thought that crying and slandering would earn her father’s love.
But this only played into her stepmother’s hands. Constant crying, always the one to create havoc, and always slandering her father’s preferred woman, her father gradually became impatient with her.
She felt fear, and cried even harder.
But she refused to accept it, she refused to.
However, the more she acted , the more her father despised her.
This created a vicious cycle.
This cycle significantly impacted her personality.
She wanted to become a sunshine-filled lady, always smiling and radiating warmth. But she couldn’t, as the shadows within her sometimes took over.
Whenever she was under the control of this darkness, she felt very upset.
Especially when she displayed this dark side in front of Tong Sanlang. She didn’t want to do this; she wished for him to always see her smiling face and beauty.
She lowered her gaze, whispering, “I’m sorry. I recognise you, even when I lose my mind. So when I said what I did, it was meant for the others.” ɴᴇᴡ ɴᴏᴠᴇʟ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀs ᴀʀᴇ ᴘᴜʙʟɪsʜᴇᴅ ᴏɴ novelFirｅ.net
Hearing these words, Tong Sanlang was once again taken aback. He looked at her regretful face, his lips tightened and replied, “It was not your fault. You don’t need to apologise.”
He knew how kind Qiao Xiaomai normally is and understood that she would not just lose her cool without cause.
Each time she lost her cool, it was because someone was causing trouble.
And not just ordinary trouble.
Therefore, it was not her fault.
“As long as you recognise me, it’s okay. Having such a temperament could also be good, you can’t always be happy all the time. Everyone has a fiery side to them, and it’s unhealthy to keep it in. You have to vent.”
“And by the way, you don’t look ugly when you’re angry. On the contrary, you look very cool and dashing.”
“Standing on top of the boxes, axe in hand, with a cold expression on your face. You have real queen quality.”
“I’m used to seeing your gentle side, it was a pleasant surprise to see a different, strong side of you.”
Qiao Xiaomai, “… Don’t you find it scary?”
“Not at all. Not a bit. You’re cool.” As he said ‘cool,’ Tong Sanlang nodded emphatically to show that he genuinely agreed.
Qiao Xiaomai’s fiery temper did not frighten him. Knowing that even when she loses her temper she still recognises him, all he felt was compassion.
To have developed such a personality, she must have suffered a great deal in the past.
A strong feeling of compassion and sympathy quickly spread across his face. Qiao Xiaomai watched his handsome face under the dim light, momentarily pursed her lips, and then broke into a smile.
It was wonderful, meeting him.