Chapter 507: Chapter 507: Still Remember the First Time I Saw You_1
“Tell me, is your heart beating fast?”
He leaned his forehead against hers, his deep black eyes peering into hers as he asked in a low voice.
Jian Yufei didn’t reply.
He asked again, “Tell me, is your heart beating fast?”
Jian Yufei responded expressionlessly, “I stopped feeling my heartbeats a long time ago.”
Her heart was like a dead pool, still and lifeless.
Although her heart was still pounding, she no longer felt its beat.
Ruan Tianling leaned down and gently kissed her lips, his arms lovingly rolling her in his embrace. His kisses had never been this soft and tender before.
Jian Yufei tried to push him away, but her body was weak and powerless. Even if she had the strength, she couldn’t push him away.
Her power was always ineffective in front of him.
“Yufei, when did you fall in love with me?” Ruan Tianling delicately kissed her, whispering his question.
“…..” Jian Yufei stared at the ceiling, unresponsive.
The man hooked his hand around her hips, holding her close, his lips pressed against her neck.
“Have you forgotten? Or did you never love me to begin with?”
“I remember when I first met you, you were very shy, very timid, unlike other blind dates. You lacked their boldness, their grace, and even their pretense. You were just very shy, even afraid to steal a glance at me.”
“At that time, I thought I would definitely not choose you as my wife. Because you’re too unremarkable, as common as a grain of sand.
But destiny is so strange that you ended up marrying me. I admit, it’s not just that I don’t love you, it’s also that I look down on you.
In my eyes, you were too ordinary, I didn’t think you were worthy of me.”
Ruan Tianling paused, then continued, “But it’s strange, living with you, I never felt tired.
I was just pretending to despise and ignore you.
Yet, every night sleeping next to you, I felt so comfortable, not repulsed at all even though I claimed to hate you. I didn’t despise you as my wife.
I was bewildered, my heart always lingering, like a wanderer who didn’t know where to belong.”
“Then Yan Yue came back, and I was very happy, because I was no longer lost.
I told myself that I should firmly choose Yan Yue because after all, she was ever the woman I loved.
However, after divorcing you, my heart became more lost. I realized that what I considered my haven was not what I needed.
I believed I loved Yan Yue very much, believed she was the woman who deserved me the most, believed you were no good at all.”
“Eventually, I discovered that my feelings for her for all these years had already become familial love, causing me to confuse it with romantic love. I thought I loved her a lot. Now I realize, the relationship between a man and a woman shouldn’t be like that…..”
“Yufei, I always assumed, only now do I know, the path we reached today, is all because of what I assumed. Yufei, try to accept me, can we start again?”
Ruan Tianling said all this in a gentle tone, but when he looked up, he was met by Jian Yufei’s vacant eyes.
She was lost in thought; had she listened to what he said?
The man furrowed his brows and squeezed her chin, “Did you hear what I said?”
Jian Yufei came back to herself and replied indifferently: “I heard it.”