Chapter 381: I’m Not Giving Up
Translator: Henyee Translations Editor: Henyee Translations
Xia Ning pressed her lips slightly. All of a sudden, she looked at the man next to her and curled her lips. “You think everyone in the world is like a moth drawn to flames?”
Qiao Yu stared at her with dark eyes.
Xia Ning took her gaze back and said calmly, “Some people mistake habit for love. Some will never say love even if there is love. Both are due to the fear in the bottom of the heart.
When you are used to a person and think you fell in love with them, it’s because you have no courage to love another. When you love someone but you can never profess your feelings, that’s because you are afraid of being turned down.
Which one do you think Ziming is like?”
Qiao Yu did not answer.
Xia Ning continued, “Neither. The Zheng Ziming I know is definitely not like that.” She stopped for a second. “If he likes me and has not told me his feelings till today, it’s probably because he himself is not sure what feelings he has towards me. Is it responsibility or love?”
As if she was afraid that Qiao Yu could not follow, Xia Ning explained, “When I met Ziming, he was only in his early teens. To this day, I still remember the first time I saw him. He was dressed handsomely. His every action was cautious and careful as if he was an abandoned kid who was urgently looking for protection.”
Qiao Yu looked at Xia Ning with some curiosity.
But Xia Ning did not continue. She turned to him and said with a smile, “Well, I’m not gonna bother you with this. I was talking to you with a not-so-friendly attitude just now. Please don’t mind.”
Qiao Yu frowned. No matter what, her apology and her gratitude were both because of others, so he would not accept either.
“Well, it’s getting late. Find yourself a hotel and have some rest. I wanted to say just now, is it okay for you to ditch work and help us like this?”
Qiao Yu looked at her and answered, “It’s okay.”
Xia Ning nodded. “You don’t have to be here tomorrow. I can take care of this now. You helped me this time. I know I can’t repay it just with a thank you. When it’s all over, let me know what you want in return.”
“Xia Ning!” Qiao Yu shouted out in a low voice suddenly.
Xia Ning’s eyebrowed twitched a little. Seeing the man on the bench in a bad mood, she asked with a smile, “What?”
“I helped Zheng Ziming not because I’m a nice person, and definitely not because I want something in return. It’s just because he’s your friend. I just don’t want to see you sad. Because if that’s the case, I’ll be sad as well!”
Qiao Yu stood up and stared at Xia Ning. “I want you to understand, that my feelings for you are serious.”
Xia Ning raised her eyebrows and curled her lips a little. “Sure, you are serious. So let me ask you a question. After I was in the car accident back then, I asked for a divorce. Why did you agree to divorce me without thinking?”
Qiao Yu frowned. He did not speak.
“I’ll tell you why then. It’s because I’m out of your world, just like you are to me right now.” Xia Ning touched her head and frowned deeply. “Let’s not talk about this, okay? Qiao Yu, that past was really a big pain for me. Whenever I think about it, my heart will feel like it is being carved by a knife. The thing I hate the most in my life is being abandoned. You can think of it as, you abandoned me when I needed you the most and I would never be able to forgive you.”
Qiao Yu looked at her and said in a low voice, “I’m not giving up!”
He seemed really in his own world. Xia Ning was a bit helpless. She said coldly, “You should leave now. When you come up with something you want me to do later, just let me know.”
Qiao Yu darted a look at her and left without any other words.
Xia Ning watched Qiao Yu’s back view and looked at his left hand that was injured. She touched the ointment she bought and did not take it out after all.