She blamed him for ignoring her and leaving her. Therefore, she closed the door to her heart and did not want to talk to him or love him.
So even if they were together, there was always a wall between them.
Blame him?! Xia Ning looked at the tense man in front of her and smiled suddenly. How could he say “you still blame me” to her in such an impatient tone?
But he was not the only one. Anyone else would have said the same.
The entanglement between them seemed to be related to the fact that she divorced him five years ago because of his neglect. It was a long and endless struggle. It was normal for him to lose his patience.
“If I blame you, do you think I will still stand here and talk to you?” Xia Ning asked suddenly. She looked at Qiao Yu and curled her lips. “How much do I have to suffer to live under the same roof as you?”
Qiao Yu looked at the woman in front of him and did not speak. There were some things that he did not dare to touch. She did not want to say it and eventually, it became a gap between them.
“At the end of the day, it was me who put it down. You didn’t put it down, did you?” Xia Ning looked at Qiao Yu and smiled suddenly. “I didn’t mention what happened five years ago because I didn’t want to open the wound. Also, you forgot that I was the one who got hurt. You would never know how I got through it back then. So why would I tell you everything? Do you think you can heal the wound just by talking to me?! Qiao Yu, no one can do this, including you. Maybe you are the one who all the more has no right.”
She used four years to get rid of the past. She did not expect to see him and Enoch again last year. At that moment, all the effort she put in was in vain. She knew that her heart could not calm down anymore. Because of him, because of the past.
She took a few steps back and smiled suddenly. “If you need the sincere Xia Ning back then that only had eyes for you, I think you will be disappointed. Some feelings can only be felt once in your life. Back then, you gave me the urge to give up everything. But now, you are no longer the everything in my life.”
When a woman gave her life to a man, it was destined to be a tragedy. She would not make the same mistake again.
Xia Ning’s words were determined. It was almost clear to Qiao Yu that even if she loved him now, she would not love him too deeply.
Qiao Yu looked at the woman with pricks all over her body. Yes, she protected herself well and did not let anyone get close to her heart. She would never get close to others.
“Xia Ning, how can you…” Qiao Yu said in a low voice.
“I can’t help it!” Xia Ning said straightforwardly. She looked at Qiao Yu. “No matter how much this world calls men and women equal, in terms of relationships, they will always be leaning towards the men. You love me and I don’t love you enough. I’m an evil person. Back then, I loved you so much and you didn’t love me. Why can you be forgiven so easily? If you want to compare, then ask yourself who is crueler.”
Her words seemed to have lit a fuse. When feelings become compared, they would turn into a deal and not mere feelings.
Xia Ning could feel the anger on his body burning. His eyes looked like they could spit fire out of them. She did not know why they were talking like this. He was anxious to get her love, but she could not go against her conscience and tell him that she loved him as much as before.