I’m sorry, Instructor Mu. I know that this is my childishness, but seeing Rong call you daddy really made me insane with jealousy. Seeing how you treat Wang Xia, I couldn’t help but feel envious.
I know, I hadn’t promised you anything, and this jealousy is inexplicable, but I just can’t control my heart.
Maybe, when I first came to the Imperial City, I had already fallen in love with you. Or perhaps even earlier, when you descended from nowhere and saved me from Ye Sheng, I had already fallen for you. Or maybe during the first time you helped me out in the bar, my heart was already attached to you.
But I didn’t dare to admit my love. This love came so suddenly, and so heavily that my weak, insecure self didn’t dare to touch it.
Instructor Mu, give me a little more time. Maybe one day, I will have the courage to tell you my past. When I have enough courage to show you my bleeding heart, I will accept you.
Even if the truth would make you leave me.
I admit I’m selfish, selfish enough to not give up your love, yet dare not face my dirty self.
Selfish enough to not accept your love, but still wish to monopolize it.
Selfish enough to know that I am not worthy of someone as excellent as you, yet feel intensely jealous when I see you being good to other women.
An Ran, how selfish, cowardly, weak, and unworthy you are. Is this really you?
When Mu Xingfeng came into the bedroom, he saw the girl lying on the bed, curled up with her back to the door, looking as if she was asleep.
She always liked to sleep in this position, a posture only those who lack a sense of security have.
He once wondered what it was that made her so insecure. When Mom An sold her to someone else, everything became clear.
Her sensitivity made his heart ache, and he also hated himself for forcing her in such circumstances, making things worse for her.
Mu Xingfeng sat by the bed, gently stroking her smooth, jade-like cheek, smoothing out her furrowed brows.
An Ran, if you knew it was me that night, would you forgive me?
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Mu Xingfeng glanced at An Ran once more; she wasn’t disturbed. He tucked her in and closed the bedroom door gently before going downstairs.
Gu Haoyu was sitting on the sofa, slightly surprised to see Mu Xingfeng without An Ran. They had been inseparable lately.
"Where’s your girlfriend?" Gu Haoyu asked.
"Brother, didn’t you come here to ask about my girlfriend, right?" Mu Xingfeng said as he sat opposite Gu Haoyu.
Gu Haoyu smiled, not really minding him. He was just still getting used to Mu Xingfeng having such a soft and adorable girl. In his mind, only a woman like Lin Ruonan was worthy of Mu Xingfeng.
Thinking of Lin Ruonan, Gu Haoyu’s expression softened.
"Miss Feng from the Feng Family went missing before the New Year. This morning, she was found in an abandoned factory in the northern part of the city. According to inside sources, she was repeatedly sexually assaulted and is now mentally unstable. The police have already started investigating," Gu Haoyu said.
Mu Xingfeng snorted coldly, "Serves her right. Don’t worry, I wouldn’t stoop to such means."
Gu Haoyu raised an eyebrow. When he got the news, he didn’t think it was Mu Xingfeng’s doing either. But considering how Miss Feng stirred up trouble at the Shen Family’s engagement banquet, he thought it would be better to mention it, as anyone would connect the incident to the Mu Family or the Shen Family given the short time frame.