It’s really hard to forget you, the pain of missing you entwines my heart, incessantly longing day and night, yet there’s never an answer. Why did you choose to sever everything back then?
It’s so hard to hear you say you love me, the words you once said have scattered like windblown clouds, standing on either end of the balance, equally troubled, the only answer, loving someone is so hard...
This song expressed An Ruo’s feelings exactly, yes, loving someone is really difficult indeed.
Tang Yuchen returned home, and as soon as he entered the living room, he heard Lan Keren coughing.
She leaned against the sofa, coughing breathlessly.
The man furrowed his brows tightly, stepped forward, wrapped his arms around her shoulders, and said adamant, "How has your cold gotten worse? Come on, go to the hospital with me."
Lan Keren nestled against him and shook her head: "I don’t want to go."
"Be good, listen to me. Your cold is getting worse, how can we not go to the hospital?"
"I don’t want to go!" She clung to his arm, her eyes closed, she said firmly: "I hate the hospital, I don’t want to go to the hospital ever again."
Tang Yuchen’s eyes flickered slightly, feeling very guilty inside.
For his sake, she had ventured alone for six years, and had stayed in the hospital for one year. Perhaps during those six years, she also spent a lot of time in hospitals.
He could imagine that she must have been taken to the hospital only when she was critically ill each time.
Lying in a cold room, facing the trials of death, it must have been a brutal torment for her soul.
Her heart must have been filled with fear and disgust for the hospital, probably the last place she ever wanted to go.
Thinking of this, the man felt even more guilt-filled.
It was all because of him that she had endured so much suffering.
"Alright, we won’t go. I’ll have the doctor come over to see you, how about that?" Tang Yuchen held her body tightly, his voice soft.
"Mhm." Lan Keren smiled in response.
The doctor arrived soon after, gave Lan Keren an injection, and set up an IV for her before leaving.
Tang Yuchen stayed by the bedside, watching the woman sleep, feeling very conflicted.
Today, he had suddenly realized that he also very much liked An Ruo, but his heart still held Lan Keren.
How should he choose?
These two women, he couldn’t bear to let either of them get hurt again.
Lan Keren sleepily opened her eyes and seeing him still by her side, she grasped his hand, her heart filled with warmth.
"Ah Chen, it’s so good to be by your side again."
Her gaze was hazy, and she smiled happily: "I always thought I couldn’t come back, but heaven let me live and return to your side. Ah Chen, I don’t want to be apart from you ever again."
Tang Yuchen felt a pang in his heart, and suddenly asked her: "Even if I’ve had many women, you won’t despise me?"
Lan Keren leaned into his embrace, shaking her head indifferently: "As long as you need me, I will never leave you."
Someone like her, who had faced death too many times, had long seen through everything.
She only needed to understand what she wanted, that was enough. If she could grasp even a moment of happiness, she would hold it tightly; all other mundanities, she had no mind to care about.
Her reply also made Tang Yuchen realize, Lan Keren’s heart only had him, as long as he was there, her happiness was assured.
If he were gone, she would surely...
"Ah Chen, should we get married?" the woman in his arms suddenly asked.
Tang Yuchen’s expression froze, to marry her?