"But I have never blamed God, and I have always strived to live. Because I am not alone, I have Xiao Ji by my side, he is my closest family. And there’s Yun Feiyang, he’s a good person, he’s very kind to me, he has given me a lot of help and warmth. I think, when God closes a door on someone, He always opens a window for them. So when I met you, I was grateful for how good you’ve been to me. You are all the warmth that heaven has given me, I cherish you, and I thank you. Until now, I still have hope for you, I know you are not an utterly wicked person, deep down you have kindness and sincerity. Xingtian, let’s not reach a point of mutual hatred, okay?"
Xingtian’s eyes flickered with an indistinct light, he lowered his gaze and said hoarsely, "An Ruo, I understand what you mean. But do you know, you are my only warmth, without you, my life is only darkness and cold. Even if you hate me, I cannot let you go."
Despair gradually appeared in An Ruo’s eyes.
She suddenly pushed him away forcefully, quickly reaching under the pillow for a small knife, pressing it across her neck.
Xingtian collapsed to the ground, his face changing immediately at her action.
"An Ruo, what are you doing, put the knife down!"
"Don’t come any closer!" An Ruo pressed the sharp blade against her neck, a slight downward cut could sever her artery.
Xingtian was too frightened to move closer, he backed off a bit, then slowly stood up.
"An Ruo, do you really not want to marry me?" he asked her heartbroken.
An Ruo said faintly, "Yes, I don’t want to be imprisoned for a lifetime, nor do I want to live a life I don’t want. Now I have no way out, either you let me go, or I’ll die in front of you."
"You...," Xingtian was heartbroken and threatened her fiercely, "Aren’t you afraid I’ll kill Tang Yuchen and your son?!"
"Xingtian, I know asking you might not get your agreement. But I still want to beg you, please let them go, okay? This is my last wish, if you have any sincerity towards me, please agree not to harm them, alright?"
"Dream on! If you dare die, I’ll blow them to bits!" the man said angrily.
Tears suddenly slid down An Ruo’s eyes, she shook her head and said, "I know you won’t hurt them, you will respect my last wish, right?"
"I won’t! You better put the knife down, or I’ll order them killed right now!"
An Ruo, ignoring his words, said to herself, "You will respect my last wish, I know you will. Xingtian, don’t let me die uneasily. After I’m gone, scatter my ashes in the sea."
That way, perhaps her soul would drift to J City, maybe she could see Tang Yuchen and Kangkang again.
An Ruo lowered her eyes, resolutely preparing to act.
Xingtian suddenly shouted, "Okay, I’ll let you go!"
The knife had just grazed her skin when it stopped abruptly.
She lifted her gaze, meeting Xingtian’s eyes like black holes.
"Good, put the knife down." He softly said to her.
An Ruo’s mind was a bit hazy, she didn’t want to put the knife down, but a consciousness inside her moved her hand.
"An Ruo, put the knife down, okay?" The man’s gentle voice sounded again.
An Ruo reluctantly moved the knife away, just a bit, and Xingtian quickly moved up to grab it away, throwing it fiercely out the window.