"Are you sure?"
She asked me.
It wasn't hard for me to know the meaning behind her question.
Was I sure?
Heck, I am.
But before I could tell her anything, she continued to speak further.
"This thing we have between us... isn't normal at all."
And she is saying this now? After all the things that have happened between us?
Guess what Ayesha said did have an impact on her.
"And you are thinking of this now, mother?"
I decided to go hard on her. To be honest, I wasn't the one who started this. Yeah, I was involved, wholeheartedly at that, and I take the blame, too, but now... nothing matters. We can't change what has happened already, and we can't go back to normal as well.
I continued again,
"You started all this even when you knew what it was, right, mother? Then why are you asking yourself if what you did was right or wrong? Of all the things that we have done, none is considered normal, and both of us understand that. You should have stopped the very moment you decided to have this kind of relationship with your son."
My words were harsh, and it did affect her... harshly.
She was shaken up, her body was trembling.
It was good that she is having the realisation now.
But have I hated anything that happened between us?
Never.
Yeah, she was the one who started this first, but I was the one who continued this after.
If I had pushed her away at that time, then none of this would have continued.
So I am also guilty in this; throwing this all upon her isn't good neither fair.
I went closer to her. My hand went towards her, raising her belowed chin, i looked deeply into her eyes.
There weren't questions, doubts but most of all... there was guilt.
"But I also knew what we were doing, mother. And I never told you to stop at all, that is because I love you as well. And that love isn't the kind that should be between a mother and son. I love you as a woman. I want to make you mine and mine alone. I do not care about anything else, even if I have to face the entire world for you, I will do it."
I expressed my feelings to her. My words were still short, and I couldn't express my emotions properly.
But I meant every single word I said to her.
I didn't even realise when I became so possessive of all this.
I do not wish to lose her, by any means. And that goes for others too.
I have yet to know who my father is, but I am even willing to face him if he ever comes between us.
I won't even hesitate to kill him.
Her eyes that have been gloomy till now began to spark a little.
She parted her lips to say something, but closed them soon after.
Seeing that, I continued once again,
"So, what is your answer, mother? I am willing to see it through, no matter what I won't ever back away from it. Even if Ayesha knew about it, I do not care. As much as I love you and wish to make you mine, I feel the same towards her."
Not equally yet, but she is equally as precious to me as mother.
Then without stopping i spoke further,
"This is my own selfishness, I cannot bear to see either of you into the arms of another man. This taboo relation of ours... I do not regret it a bit."
The changes in her emotions after I said that was evident.
Not only can I feel it, but it was so clear on her face that I can read it effortlessly.
'I did all this to make him mine in this life, I never thought that he will fall for Ayesha as well. She is beautiful and caring, but when did he develop such feelings for her? And not only that, there is Setsuna as well, even if she is not here right now, but she will return for sure. At that time, the number of woman around him will only increase more, there is also the scent of another woman on him which I have never met before, it has been there since he was born. I do not wish to share my man with others, but I know more and more women with flock over him. If I try to keep him to myself, that might make him drift away from me and I can never have it.'
"So what do you say, mother? If you still wish to end this all here, I am fine with it."
It was true as well.
If she doesn't want to continue then I will just walk away from here. But I know she won't, she will never.
"Yes."
She finally opened her mouth.
"I love you too, my dear. And I will do anything if it's for you."
She agreed.
I knew she would have. But there is something strange, her possessiveness was growing strong, much stronger.
Is she planning something?
'If i can't stop him from going for other women, then I am fine with it. But I will at least try to make him mine completely, if I give him my everything and make him feel that I am the only one, then I can still have him for myself. I will just give him the ultimate pleasure that he can never get from other women.'
Her eyes changed, it glowed with a dark blue colour, a strange smile formed on her face as she wrapped her hands around my waist and leaned closer to me and muttered,
"I will make you mine, my son."
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Thanks for reading everyone.
Well, I did say R-18 chapter, but guess it will start from next one.
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