There was still some heartache. At the moment he heard Bai Zhi’s words, he realized that in Bai Zhi’s heart, he was not irreplaceable. The pain filled his heart, causing extraordinary discomfort.
So the words he spoke were also somewhat hurtful.
In fact, this matter wasn’t really a big deal.
But at this moment, they were both feeling a bit awkward.
Neither of them realized what this meant.
Bai Zhi knew she had misspoken, but in the end, didn’t she also feel a bit wronged?
"I thought I could say whatever I wanted in front of you, without worrying about the consequences, without fearing any plots or tricks, without worrying about making someone uncomfortable, and without having to disguise myself or become someone’s protector.
I just wanted to speak my mind, to argue if I felt like it, to be willful if I chose. To be reckless without consideration, I thought we could be honest with each other.
Moh Li, all this time I’ve been pretending to be someone I’m not, except when I’m arguing with you.
In front of Wu Wa, I have to be like a sister, protecting him.
In front of Grandfather, I have to be sensible so as not to worry him. And in front of Ye Xiu, I also have to be on my best behavior.
I don’t even know when I can truly be myself. I thought I could argue with you.
Just now, I spoke without thinking, like how we normally argue. We say things to annoy the other person, but afterwards, we’re still good friends.
I didn’t realize you didn’t think that way. It seems I was presumptuous, I’m sorry. From now on, I won’t do it again. I will be more considerate of your thoughts, your feelings.
I’m going to go back first."
But I will never again be so careless.
I want to trust you, but I’ll never again let my guard down so completely.
I thought I could be utterly unguarded in front of you.
Because, in front of you, I was always just myself.
But it turns out you might not like me the way I am.
Even Bai Zhi herself felt she was being a little melodramatic. Not knowing why, her eyes began to sting, feeling especially aggrieved.
Moh Li looked at the vulnerable and helpless Bai Zhi and grabbed her hand.
Moh Li was a whole head taller than she was.
Bai Zhi said, her voice quivering with a hint of tears. She wanted to go home and didn’t want to talk to Moh Li anymore.
"I’m sorry, it’s just that I care about you so much that a single sentence from you can hurt me.
You said you would take responsibility for me, don’t you remember?
He gripped Bai Zhi’s hand, refusing to let go.
"I didn’t mean to, you know that. My situation is very complicated, and meeting you was not easy. Apart from you, I won’t trust anyone else. So I hope that I am the only one you trust the most.
I can’t accept anyone else being mentioned in the same breath as me in your heart. Little junior sister, you can only trust me."
You can only trust me.
Bai Zhi: "..." Hearing this, why does it sound so domineering?
Also, something doesn’t seem quite right.
"I don’t have anyone I can trust, only you. So can you trust only me as well?"
His voice got softer and softer, his eyes blinking earnestly, making him seem somewhat pitiful?
"But I think I can still trust Wu Wa, Grandfather, and the rest."
Bai Zhi blinked, and a chuckle escaped her. She couldn’t help it anymore.
Why had the situation turned out ? That’s not right; she was still angry.
She was still feeling wronged, so why was she laughing?
"I’m serious, don’t laugh."
Moh Li frowned, stretching out his hand and pinching Bai Zhi’s cheek.