Despairin the lowest level
My parents were a terrible person .
Abuse have become part of the daily life .
The environment was terrible .
My personality was also twisted .
[It’s that brat with the abominable eyes . ]
When my father vomits, he kicks the young me .
My mother also uses violence .
Along with heartless words .
I just had to give birth .
I can’t even kill an unwanted brat here in Japan, or so she says .
At that moment, a violent veil covered my thoughts .
Those bastards, I’ll kill them someday .
Now that I think about it, was that the so called survival instinct?
I’ll be killed if I keep going as it is .
My instinct tells me so .
That’s what I thought .
My parents are suddenly missing .
They left me behind .
They just suddenly disappeared .
My uncle’s family took custody of me .
Before my parents disappeared, they told me to call my uncle .
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My uncle’s family took custody of me with conviction .
I was raised in an environment that I thought was not “ordinary” .
My uncle’s family were kind people .
I decided that I’d be a child without problems .
I don’t want to bother these people about me .
Mimori Touka have come to know kindness .
Thanks to my uncle’s family .
I have to be a child without problems .
I’ve become harmless .
However, it may have returned before the transfer...
The real – “Mimori Touka” .
[So this is the Disposal Ruins, huh...]
The status... can I confirm it?
A robotic voice echoed in my head .
It’s necessary to have enough visibility, huh...
I feel around the nearby ground .
The touch of leather .
I grab it and held it in my hand .
I can feel the jewelry near my thumb .
If I put magic energy in this jewel, it would illuminate, right . . ?
I’m reminded of that time when I use my personal skill on that goddess .
Reminder, it’s that shitty goddess’ commentary .
Magic energy, injecting .
The jewel began to shine a faint light .
The leather bag also emits light along with it .
Really, a feeling of “being able to use magic” .
It may be weak, my field of vision still became better .
A ceiling with intense unevenness .
The ground is also strangely bumpy .
[Rather than a ruin, it’s more like a cave . ]
I stand up and approach .
Are these from a human?
[Ack~!] (T/N: gross onomatopeia)
Furtheremore, it’s just a half of a skull .
Where’s the other half?
Was it broken into two?
It was broken into two .
“Something” is in this ruins .
My heart is beating like crazy .
This is the disposal ruins with zero survival rate .
Is it because my consciousness that have been half awake has become clear?
The area around my temple began to pulsate .
If you think normally, Mimori Touka will die .
The goddess may not be here, but returning to the ground would still be difficult .
Unusual sweat began to spout out .
I have a bad feeling about this .
The putrid scent of death is drifting everywhere .
The scent of death from this disposal ruins .
Those guys, will I become like them?
Something, important .
The feeling I had when I’m living with my real parents .
I’m about to be killed .
My heart is rumbling .
It’s pulsing became intense .
It’s dangerous here .
My instinct tells me so .
The reason for the warning is immediately apparent .
Suddenly– The brightness has increased .
The surface of the skull becomes orange .
The skull reflects some light?
Something that emits orange light .
[Fu shi yu oo... . uooorrrrrrroaaaaa~! shi yu~ oo~ oo~!]
Shuwashuwashuwa... (T/N: apparently, that’s how bubbles sounds .
Something falls on the ground .
Something sounds like its melting .
Did it just melt the ground?
The irregularities in the ground I saw earlier were quite intricate .
Is it because of that shuwashuwa I heard earlier?
Something is... behind me?
I want to make sure .
But, I didn’t turn around .
The reason is because I’m sure .
The moment I move, I’ll be killed .
My reasoning acted as a brake .
The one who destroyed the breaks— is my instinct .
The moment I started running, I fell over...
However, this turned to be my good fortune .
Grazing through overhead– something with a heavy mass .
Readjusting my posture, I run .
Only to be blown out by wind pressure .
Just now, did it just–?
Did it just try to hit me?
Did it just try to catch me?
I need to do something,
No time to turn around .
Absolutely, no time at all .
The feeling of adrenaline runs through me .
Every cell in my body is scared .
My teeth is now chattering .
It’s still ringing, bit by bit .
The real intent to kill .
It was different from what the goddess have released .
The goddess intends to overpower .
Now, the intent of that “something” on my back–
While running, I suddenly realized .
Hurriedly, I hide the leather bag in my uniform .
This light have become a mark .
I’m going to slip in the dark .
Please let me go already .
[Hah... Hah... . Hah . . Hah... . ]
I want to reduce the sound of my breathing .
Breathing is difficult .
My sense of footing have become unreliable .
Thought of being shredded to pieces .
No— such thoughts must be thrown away .
My instinct tells me so .
I don’t want to die .
Right now, what’s controlling me is just my instinct .
Everything was left to my instinct .
Again, it overflowed .
Even though, I’m not sad .
Even though, I’m not happy .
It’s just, I’m scared .
There’s a scary thing, but...
The reason for my tears is another emotion .
Emotions I have recently tasted
I’ve stumble upon something that stand out .
It was fortunate that I had been able to run through this darkness until now...
[Gah... Guh!? Hah~ Hah~]
I’m scared but tears won’t come out .