601 He’s Unhappy
Song Ci said stubbornly, “But if I didn’t take on this role, you’d still have to act it yourself! Are you really going to give up so easily?”
When Qian Wu heard this, he subconsciously raised his voice, “What do you mean by that, Song Ci? Are you saying that you won’t take on this movie? Why not? You’ve said so much, but you’re regretting it now, aren’t you? In the end, you still look down on an unknown director like me.”
Song Ci was speechless. “That’s not what I meant…” She simply did not want to take away the glory that belonged to Qian Wu.
Qian Wu suddenly smiled. Of course, he knew that Song Ci did not mean it that way. He had said it on purpose so that Song Ci would say less of such things. Who else could play the role if Song Ci did not? There was no one more suitable than Song Ci. Although he did not know why Song Ci insisted on having him act and wanted to change the script, he also knew that if no one really came to act in the end, he would have this idea to change the female lead to a man. Although some highlights could not be portrayed, he would have no other choice. This movie was to be his farewell to his dream.
Once he was done directing, he would leave the industry and become a character he wrote. He would live on with the flow and be a wealthy second-generation heir who sat around waiting for death. It was also to commemorate his dream and honor his lost pride. However, in the end, he was still unwilling to give up just like that.
He looked at Song Ci and said in a calm tone, “You’re right. If you hadn’t agreed to play the female lead, perhaps I would have changed the movie and acted in it myself because I wouldn’t have been able to resist my obsession with the movie. Though, if I had made this decision, I can tell you clearly that no matter what the final outcome of the movie was, I would still feel sad and regretful. I would pity myself for playing my female lead, Ling Yi’s role, and not allowing her a chance to appear on the big screen. I’ve accepted the new Ling Yi, which makes me even more pathetic and selfish. In the end, just like you said, I won’t be very happy if I win the award.”
Qian Wu’s thoughts suddenly became distant. “It’s not what I really want. Song Ci, I’m a director. I like to stand behind the camera to film, record, create, and control. I don’t like being in front of the camera and acting. It can only be under circumstances when there are no actors available and when I’m at the end of my rope that I, a director, would act in it. Otherwise, I only think it’s cruel.”
Qian Wu did not want to be forced into a dead end. That would be too painful. His pride could not take it, even though he wished he was. When he was about to give up, and that life was hopeless and lost without a way out, someone would reach out and pull him. It had helped him light up the path ahead and allowed him to continue moving forward.
It could be said that Qian Wu was not afraid of failure. He came from a good family, and his life was privileged. The only obstacle was his dream. He had absolute love and pure sincerity for it. He could completely disregard everything and move forward, but he only hoped someone would support him.
He really liked directing, and he wanted to be a good director. However, along the way, he seemed to have encountered the world’s greatest malice. He had not even thought about giving up when he was set up by his parents, but in the end, he could not hold on any longer. Now that someone was helping him, he really wanted to put his original dream on full display.
Song Ci looked at Qian Wu, who was in front of her and did not speak for a long time. She was stunned. She never expected Qian Wu to have such thoughts. As an actress, winning an award could be said to be the most important prestige. It was a kind of affirmation, and she was very concerned about it. Putting herself in Qian Wu’s shoes, she felt it was impossible for Qian Wu not to care. This was something that would make people shine. Therefore, she did not want to take away what should have belonged to Qian Wu. Even before signing the contract, she had no idea Qian Wu would become a famous director.
After hearing Qian Wu’s heartfelt words and thinking about his deeds in the original book, she understood that he might really have been unhappy.