His childhood wasn’t perfect, at least it was very different from the harmonious family that the public imagined them to be. Most of the time, he was scolded by his family. However, his father, who was a general, was prestigious and strict, and his mother was gentle and beautiful. Although his life wasn’t as sweet as a honeypot, he didn’t have to worry about anything, thanks to his parents.
Xie Xuanchen, at that time, was young and full of energy. He stayed with the soldiers in the military camp for too long, and was taught to be righteous and to be successful. Hence, during the 5th year of the Heping era, which was also the first year of the HongJia era, Guo Rong and Xie Yi were ordered to conquer Guangjin. Xie Xuanchen, who was 15 years old that year, brought along a knife and a horse, he then went to chase after his father and uncle’s army troops to join them.
The fact that he ran away from home was kept secret from Lady Yin. Later, Xie Xuanchen regretted his choice countless times, he blamed himself for leaving his mother alone in the capital.
He didn’t even have the chance to say goodbye to his mother.
Guo Rong and Xie Yi won the battle, but the troops stopped at the city of Ye and they didn’t head back. The Emperor Gong of the Later Jin dynasty had suspected Guo Rong long ago, but now he was even doubtful that he was going to raise a rebellion against him. Emperor Gong was so angry that he ordered the killing of the Guo and Xie family.
Both Guo and Xie family, from the maids to even the babies, were all killed. When the news reached the city of Ye, Guo Rong was furious, and had formally turned his back against him and declared to fight against the immortal emperor.
It was this time that Xie Xuanchen finally gained the confidence and recognition of Xie Yi and Guo Rong. He was given a chance to lead the troop. Xie Xuanchen broke into the capitol, and even captured and killed Emperor Gong that was about to escape. He was a great contributor to their win.
Xie Xuanchen killed Emperor Gong and successfully avenged his mother’s death, but still Lady Yin couldn’t come back from the dead anymore. Based on the father and son relationship between Xie Xuanchen and Xie Yi, they couldn’t meet and talk peacefully without the presence of Lady Yin.
Home is where his mother was, if his mother was absent, there would be no home.
The person in his memories that would hold a lamp and wait for his return was no longer there for him anymore.
Xie Xuanchen’s dream was broken and very chaotic, for a while he would dream that his mother chased him down and tied a red knot on him as a child, then he would dream of his mother standing at the door as she waited for him after a hectic day in the military camp. Although he had reassured Lady Yin many times that he would be fine. Lady Yin was still worried about him.
The gentle and beautiful lady in his dream slowly became a blur, and it turned into a young girl that was holding a lamp. She walked towards him from far away, and lighted the lamps along the road. When she turned sideways to light the lamp, she was extremely focused, her eyes dazzled, and bright lights shined from behind her.
Xie Xuanchen dreamt of the things that he had done when he was out of control. When in a manic state, he had no idea what he was doing, but his brain would remember everything and allow him to rewatch how terrifying he was in his dream over and over again.
Before that, when he turned crazy, all he could see was red, flowing and fiery red. He would be standing in the center alone, and thousands of people would scold him. Only this time, among the large crowd, he saw one girl pushing the crowd aside, and ran towards him without hesitation.
She said: “You’re just ill, you’ll be fine after you get some sleep. Let’s go home.”
After Lady Yin passed away, no one had ever told him “Let’s go home”. Guo Rong had gotten another wife, Xie Yi had appointed one of the concubines to replace his mother’s position, Xie Rui and his family moved from Lin’an to the capital. Everyone had rebuilt their families, only him, he was left all alone.
When Xie Xuanchen woke up from his dream, Mu Mingtang’s “Let’s go home” seemed to echo in his ears. He opened his eyes and thought that he could hear Mu Mingtang’s voice, but after waiting for a long while, there was nothing,
He slowly sat up, did she go light the lamps? Xie Xuanchen’s movement alarmed the maids outside, when the maids saw that he was awake, she was frightened and accidentally dropped the medicine bowl: “The prince is awake!”
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