Ye Ning saw it and shook with urgency again. She pressed down with both hands, and watched as the deep red liquid ceaselessly flowed from between her fingers. For the first time, she felt truly helpless.
"Don’t talk anymore, they’ve already called for an ambulance," she said.
"It’s... it’s no use, Ye Ning, do you... do you still hate me?"
In the end, she asked that question, the one she had once been too proud, too full of hate and unwillingness, to ask. Now, as she faced leaving this world, she finally posed the question.
Ye Ning turned her head away...
Of course, she hated. She was no saint. It was because of her that her whole life had been ruined, that she had been sent to prison. How could she not hate?
She didn’t look at her, beginning to turn towards to the people behind her in the hotel, "Where’s the doctor? Has the doctor arrived yet?"
In her fading consciousness, Yang Xueshan witnessed this scene and finally, she stopped speaking too, just lying there, staring at the patch of color above her that had turned completely gray. After a couple more twitches, she finally stopped moving altogether.
Not answering was the right thing to do because as soon as she did, she feared she wouldn’t be able to stop herself from telling Xueshan that the scum she had been involved with actually wanted her life, not just to put her in jail.
It was after she’d arranged everything and convinced that scumbag to drop his guard, that he agreed to her plan.
But whatever was said, in this lifetime, she was the one who had harmed Xueshan. If it hadn’t been for her leading Xueshan to that man, she wouldn’t have suffered this unwarranted disaster.
Nor would her entire life have been ruined by her!
Xiaoning, I’m sorry...
Ye Ning was turning around looking for the doctor when she suddenly felt the body under her hands slacken, and then the arm beside her dropped. In an instant, her whole body stiffened, and she stayed where she was, motionless.
After five years, was she dead?
She looked up, her gaze suddenly unfocused, as she blankly stared out at the storm outside and the chaos around her. She couldn’t hear anything anymore.
She had never imagined that Xueshan would die in front of her , from the year she turned six, when she was taken to the orphanage and saw her, warmly holding her hand and telling her that she would treat her like a sister for life.
It seemed she had never considered this possibility.
For her own purposes, she had offered Xueshan up to that family as a tool, and later, she had betrayed her and sent her to prison. Yes, she hated her, so much so that she wished she could kill her on the spot!
But, when Xueshan truly died in front of her, in such a tragic manner, along with her own brother, she suddenly realized that she didn’t know how to cope.
She should be, for she hated her as much as she wanted her dead.
But why was there still a sense of emptiness inside her? It was as if something had left her, and with just a blink of an eye, it had drifted far away.
"Xiaoning, don’t worry. As long as I have something to eat, I won’t let you go hungry. I will take you and my brother to a good life," she had said.
"Xiaoning, you’re so pretty, maybe it’s time for you to support your sister," she teased.
"Haozi, you should marry Sister Ning. She will be my sister-in-law, and then I won’t have to worry about food or clothes," she joked.
For a moment, it seemed as though the world had changed entirely, nothing was the same. It all felt as if it had happened just yesterday...