"When I first learned that I was sick, I came here to go through all the tests again and found out that I was pregnant. The doctors said the child couldn’t be born, so I had an abortion. After that, wasn’t my medical record only marked with the words ’termination of pregnancy’? He suddenly showed up, found out..."
"You could explain to him, he would have certainly put your well-being first if he knew."
Long Fengxi lowered her head, "Actually, I didn’t want any of my family and friends, who I know personally, to learn about my illness, because it’s cancer, not just any disease. I didn’t want people to look at me with pity and sympathy. Anyway, I didn’t get the words out at the time, and after he left, I regretted it. I tried to call him to say it, but he didn’t answer; when I texted him, his phone was already switched off, he had changed his number. I returned to the country to look for him, waited for him all night, but he returned with the shameless woman I had broken up with him for, even saying they spent the previous night together. At that time, I couldn’t say anything."
She spoke softly while eating, "We broke up, it’s kind of funny when you think about it. We were each other’s first love, and we had broken up once over a misunderstanding. During that period, he hadn’t found anyone new, and neither had I. It was as if we were implicitly waiting for each other. Later, we got back together in secret, but in the end, we broke up again. He had a flash marriage with his current wife. It’s clear that he has completely given up on me. He’s not waiting for me anymore and his actions told me not to wait for him."
Lu Youyuan hadn’t expected it to be and only felt it was a pity, "He’s very outstanding, right?"
"Indeed, very outstanding."
"What’s yours will not leave you; what’s not, you cannot keep," You Yuan said with a subdued laugh, "Perhaps destiny decided you are fated but not meant to be, to find a better man for you. Since it’s all in the past, you should also slowly learn to let go, don’t make it hard on yourself; he can’t see or feel your pain and discomfort."
Long Fengxi felt a knot in her heart loosen considerably, "Doctor Lu is right. I should focus on my treatment. Maybe my true love is waiting for me at some intersection, and I shouldn’t keep circling around the same spot. I should look ahead."
"That’s right, neither dwelling on the past nor fearing the future."
"Thank you for enlightening me, Doctor Lu. Why don’t you have a girlfriend?"
"I’ve been too busy with work every day, and before I didn’t encounter a patient who needed personal care like you. I was busy from morning till night, truly had no time. Since I only need to take care of you now, my life has indeed become much easier, no longer as hectic as before. Hence, my parents started urging me to go on blind dates, saying I’m 30 years old without a girlfriend, wondering if I’ll be lonely for life."
"Yes, you do have some more personal time now, and you should find a girlfriend to date. When you need to go on blind dates, go ahead, I’ll generally be fine at home."
"Mm, I wonder if I can meet a girl I like." He laughed, "I hope I get lucky."
"You definitely will. I have a feeling that you will soon meet a girl you like."
"May your words bring good luck."
After the meal, Lu Youyuan took away the dishes and advised her to get a good sleep.
She agreed but found herself unable to sleep.
Suddenly, Long Fengxi felt like travelling, yearning to live by the sea.
At that moment, she set a goal for herself: to go on a trip after the chemotherapy treatment was completely over.