Hearing footsteps, Lin Yueer sprang up from the couch and turned to look at him, "Beibei..."
"Why are you still not asleep?"
"I was waiting for you." Lin Yueer ran toward him and threw herself into his arms. "Beibei, I’ve hardly seen you lately. It’s making me anxious."
"Anxious about what?"
"I don’t know." Lin Yueer leaned against his chest. "Why have you been so busy lately?!"
"I have to deal with matters of both the underworld and the mortal world." He had indeed been overwhelmingly busy lately. That was part of the reason, and the other part was known only to him.
He didn’t really want to come back to Qin Garden.
Every time he returned to this home, those persistent memories would emerge before him, unceasingly.
"I want to talk to you."
Long Yubei sat down with her. "About what?"
"It was wrong of me to reveal Gu Lili’s pregnancy. I shouldn’t have exposed it, and I never anticipated that result. I thought your father would have them divorce directly. I know you’ve always blamed me for this. I sincerely apologize."
Long Yubei looked down. "That matter is in the past, Yue’er. I don’t want to talk about it anymore."
"Beibei, let’s do this from now on, okay? No matter what job you’re doing, take me with you. I promise I won’t disturb you. I’ll be very quiet. Just being with you would make me happy."
Suddenly, Long Yubei thought of the times he had done the same with Gu Li. He took her with him to the company, and she entertained herself alone in the office.
Why is it that now, when he’s with the woman he loves the most, he’s not happy at all and can’t help but think of another woman?
Long Yubei came back to his senses, "No, I don’t like that."
Lin Yueer was stunned. "You don’t like it?"
"I don’t like having someone around when I’m working, even if they’re quiet."
"Can I sleep with you tonight?" She hugged his arm. "Didn’t we agree to be together every day? I want to sleep with you every night, Beibei. I love you."
"Then sleep in your own room."
"No, I want to sleep in the master bedroom."
"Why not?!" She got angry. "Don’t you love me?! You love me so much that you’re willing to follow me through reincarnation. It’s just a room, just a bed. Is that bed so special to you? Or is it because you and Gu Li once slept in it that it’s different for you?!"
His words jolted him awake from a dream.
Yes, it’s just a room, just a bed. Why the reluctance?
The bottom line is that it’s the bed Gu Li slept in.
"What?!" Lin Yueer looked at him incredulously. "What did you say?"
"Long Yubei!" Lin Yueer was completely irritated, "She is special to you, so why didn’t you keep her? Why choose me? If you take me, you must treat me wholeheartedly. What is this? Do you regret it? Didn’t you say you loved me the most? I don’t see how much you love me. I now doubt what you’ve said to me. Someone willing to enter the Reincarnation Road for me now treats me indifferently. Don’t you find it laughable?"
"I also find it laughable now," his dark eyes were like pools. "Because with each day that passes, I regret more and more. I ask myself, why I chose you. Whether it’s the unwillingness to give up on finally being with you, or feeling that you did nothing wrong back then and I shouldn’t have been like that. Do you know how I’ve lived these past two months? Every day feels like plunging into an abyss of pain. I miss her so much, I want to see her, I would do anything to tell her, even if she killed me, I would not fight back. The more I want to see her, the less I want to see you. I’m afraid to look at your face, because I don’t know what to say to you."