Chapter 638: Chapter 639: She Has Lost the Ability to Love
Xia Yangyang felt like she had gone crazy, for such thoughts to spring to mind.
But just before, in the study, when Gu Qichen held her hand and talked about remarrying…
She actually hesitated for a moment and began to contemplate such a possibility…
Now standing in the cold wind, Xia Yangyang
became thoroughly clearheaded.
It’s been four years.
So much has happened in these four years.
Whether on her part or Gu Qichen’s.
Even if the old grudges from the past have been smoothed over,
there’s no going back for them.
Gu Qichen has also changed since then.
He now has a fiancée and close female confidantes.
As to whether he is sincere towards those women, Xia Yangyang doesn’t know.
But what she does know is,
from the day they separated four years ago,
their lives diverged like two straight lines, extending rapidly in different directions.
They may intersect for a moment, but they will never overlap again.
She must be really confused.
Even so, to have Gu Zhaohan brutally reveal her thoughts,
Xia Yangyang was still somewhat irritated.
As if he could see through her most embarrassing side.
Xia Yangyang glared at Gu Zhaohan, annoyed.
But Gu Zhaohan didn’t hard-press her. His voice softened, “As long as you think that way, I can be at ease. My uncle is not the same as before, especially after marrying Xi Zijun. You probably can’t compete with her.”
Xia Yangyang was still angry, “You don’t have to be this kind, Gu Zhaohan, there are also a few things I need to say to you.”
“I know what you want to say, that you and I could never happen, isn’t that so?”
Xia Yangyang was stunned.
The words she wanted to say were voiced by Gu Zhaohan first, it felt like a block of stone was stuck in her throat.
After a few seconds of silence, Xia Yangyang spoke: “Since you know, don’t waste your effort on me. I am just grateful towards you. In my heart, you are just the doctor of Xia Ye. The relationship between us would only remain as that between the doctor and the patient’s family. Besides, since the old man would vehemently oppose my remarriage to Gu Qichen, do you think he could accept me being with you?”
Xia Yangyang was not oblivious to Gu Zhaohan’s emotions.
She had told him these words more than once.
There were certain things Xia Yangyang couldn’t comprehend.
During their time in the United States, there was always an unspoken consensus between her and Gu Zhaohan to maintain distance.
There was a clear boundary between them, which neither of them could cross.
But after returning to their homeland, Gu Zhaohan suddenly overstepped this line.
Compared to Gu Qichen, Gu Zhaohan’s actions also caught her off guard.
Gu Zhaohan said, “Yangyang, I have never forced you to be with me. But on the condition that you will not be with anyone else, then I still have hope. I am not some noble, selfless man, on the contrary, my love for you is selfish. I want to be by your side, be it as a lover or a friend, I can wait forever. But if you are really going to remarry my uncle, then I will lose my standing. Therefore, I will stop it, even if it means hurting my uncle.”
Gu Zhaohan was being very upfront.
But Xia Yangyang felt a certain bitterness in her heart.
After leaving Gu Qichen, Xia Yangyang seemed to have lost the ability to love.
Perhaps Gu Zhaohan knew about this, so the only thing he worried about was her reconciling with Gu Qichen.
Over these years, Xia Yangyang never once thought of dating, let alone getting married again.
She had planned to remain this way for the rest of her life.
As long as Xia Ye could grow up peacefully and regain his health, to be like a normal child, Xia Yangyang would want nothing else.
But Gu Zhaohan’s current state worried her.
She could stay unmarried for the rest of her life, but Xia Yangyang didn’t want Gu Zhaohan to wait for her forever.