Chapter 813: Chapter 814: You’re Sick, Your Brain is Sick
Xia Yangyang inquired about the situation.
Dr. Anmie said, “She’s emotionally stable at the moment, but I’ve discovered a terrible thing, which is that Miss Zhang has never taken her medication on time.”
Xia Yangyang frowned.
This seemed a bit worse than she had imagined.
Xia Yangyang walked in.
Zhang Xinyi was sitting on the bed.
Directly in front of the large bed was a floor-to-ceiling window.
And beyond the window lay a boundless river view.
This made the entire room look very open.
The floor of the room was covered with a thick carpet.
There was no sound as Xia Yangyang entered.
Zhang Xinyi seemed completely unaware of her presence.
That expression was very similar to that of depression patients Xia Yangyang had encountered before.
They lived as if in their own world.
The people and things outside had no impact on them.
Even in the midst of a bustling crowd, the unshakeable gloom and loneliness followed them like a ghost.
“Miss Zhang,” Xia Yangyang softly called out.
Over there, Zhang Xinyi turned her head without any expression.
When she saw Xia Yangyang, something seemed to flash in her eyes.
“It’s you,” Zhang Xinyi said.
“Yes, it’s me,” Xia Yangyang walked over to Zhang Xinyi’s side.
Zhang Xinyi looked intently at Xia Yangyang, then suddenly smiled, “I told Brother Gu I wanted to see you, I didn’t expect he would really bring you here.”
Xia Yangyang spoke, “I’m sorry, that news must have hurt you.”
Zhang Xinyi said, “Brother Gu has already explained it to me, I know the news wasn’t released by Miss Xia, you’re not that kind of person.”
Xia Yangyang looked at Zhang Xinyi with some surprise.
It seemed that Zhang Xinyi trusted her a great deal.
Zhang Xinyi seemed to see right through Xia Yangyang.
Zhang Xinyi spoke, “Because over the years, Brother Gu would always inadvertently mention you, Miss Xia, you’re just as I imagined.”
Xia Yangyang said, “Xinyi, may I call you that? I know those things are terrifying for you, but if you can’t run from them, you have to face them. In this world, nobody can hurt you except yourself, you have to believe, everything will get better.”
Zhang Xinyi said, “Do you think people like us are being melodramatic, joking about our own lives so casually? Who can we scare with that? Who cares? Despite living a life of luxury and being the center of attention, we still imitate Lin Daiyu with our feigned suffering.”
“No, I don’t think like that. In the great movie Titanic, Rose wanted to jump into the sea and asked Jack the same question. She said something that left a deep impression on me, she said: Everything around me is forcing me, and I can’t resist it. Suddenly, I feel like I’m standing in a crowded area, and even if I were to cry out in anguish, no one would pay attention. You and her are the same, I can understand that feeling. You’re not being melodramatic, you’re just sick, your brain is sick,” Xia Yangyang replied.
Zhang Xinyi stared at Xia Yangyang, but her tears couldn’t help falling.
Apart from the psychologist, no one knew what she felt inside.
Even with the psychologist, she was always being evaluated for her condition, prescribed various kinds of medication.
She had found no empathy.
In this world, it seemed no one understood her, everything was cold and dark.
She had lost all her courage and faith in the future, forcing herself to smile in public every day.
But only she knew how exhausting it was behind that smile.