If she had never seen his tenderness and passion, perhaps she would feel satisfied, believing that’s just the kind of person he is.
But clearly, he isn’t that kind of person. When he’s in love, he’s like any ordinary man, eager to lay his heart bare and passionately show you his feelings.
So, every time they’re together, as she looks at his indifferent face, hears his indifferent tone, and sees his nonchalant demeanor, she can’t help but imagine him and Dong Xin Yan together. Then, she begins to feel insanely jealous, envious, and resentful.
She is the winner... but why doesn’t she feel like she’s won at all? It’s as if... she has snatched Gu Ningyi from Dong Xin Yan, yet no matter how hard she tries, she can’t reclaim his heart.
But she cannot lose, and she absolutely will not lose.
Gu Ningyi and she were destined to be together from the day they were born; she is destined to be Gu Ningyi’s wife, and no one... can replace her!
As she looks at Gu Ningyi’s handsome profile, the smile at the corner of her mouth gradually becomes cold. She clenches her hands, then slowly lifts them and slowly claps her hands...
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Dong Xin Yan came to take care of Gu Ningyi not by choice, but as a result of Yuan Shen’s coercive threat.
However, strangely, when Zhou Yalin asked her to leave immediately, her first reaction was not joy, but an inexplicable resistance.
Dong Xin Yan was stunned for a moment, the strange feeling gathering in her chest.
It seems... every time she sees Zhou Yalin, she always has all sorts of inexplicable feelings. It was last time, and it is the same this time.
However, she and Zhou Yalin have no real interaction, and except for her brief loss of control just now, she has always maintained a gentle attitude towards her. She really can’t understand why she feels resistant.
"What, are you unwilling?" Dong Xin Yan’s silence made Zhou Yalin frown. "Or... were you lying when you said you had no improper thoughts about Ning Yi?"
"Of course not." Dong Xin Yan snapped back to reality and quickly shook her head.
"If not, then please, Miss Dong, don’t do things that cause misunderstandings. My fiancé, I’ll take care of myself. Miss Dong, you’d better keep your concerns for your own fiancé."
Although she felt a bit uncomfortable with Zhou Yalin’s words, Zhou Yalin asking her to leave was also not a disadvantage for her. Firstly, she didn’t want to take care of Gu Ningyi in the first place, and secondly, by leaving now, she wouldn’t have to worry about being discovered by Gu Ningyi.
Dong Xin Yan thought it over for a while, forcibly ignoring the resistance and discomfort in her heart, and slowly nodded, saying word by word, "Okay, I’ll leave now. I will... disappear in front of Gu Ningyi, and from now on, there will be no connection."
These words had always been her wish. She thought that when she finally said them, it would feel very liberating, but her heart was unexpectedly heavy, as if something... was pressing down on her heart, stifling and uncomfortable.
So much so that when she returned to her apartment, she still couldn’t recover.
Her hand involuntarily clenched into a fist, gently beating at her heart, trying to relieve the pressure, but gradually, it seemed even breathing became difficult.
Is she sick? Why is it so unbearable?
Dong Xin Yan touched her forehead and found it wasn’t hot, but she was just very uncomfortable, indescribably uncomfortable.
Dong Xin Yan still took out some cold medicine, took it, then walked back to her room, lay down in bed covering herself with a blanket, and fell into a deep sleep. And then... she dreamed again.