So in this life, what I want is something I never had the chance to experiment with in my last life, something you’re willing to give me, Qi-ge. Being with you, I’m very happy, even though I’ve acted in quite a few films, and I’ve received the glory I deserved;
like Best Newcomer, like Best Supporting Role. I’m just short of a Best Actress award. I am your Best Actress, Qi-ge. I don’t feel there is any difference in getting the Best Actress award sooner or later.
As long as I’m good enough, I will eventually get this honor. And you’re there to share it with me in the audience. I think, that’s the luckiest and happiest thing, witnessing my success, sharing your glory.
What’s more, during this time, we also had a son, Zhizhi. Zhizhi is the most precious existence between us."
She couldn’t forget the expression on Bo Yan’s face at that moment, both shocked and grateful.
Bo Yan said, "If I had met Fu Yuran, I think I would’ve fallen for her sooner or later. It’s just a matter of time. It’s just that before I met Fu Yuran, Fu Yuran had already left this world."
"Another way to love you, is possible too."
Pulled back to reality, Yuran answered with confidence, "I’m very lucky. The few films I’ve made have all been successful and won me awards. I can’t say these awards mean nothing to me, but I know very well, compared to my life, I would rather have the days I have now, a heavenly life."
Huo Qi laughed, "The confidence the ’Great Film Emperor’ Bo has given you is indeed very strong."
Yuran didn’t deny it, Bo Yan had given her a sense of security, also the confidence to do whatever she wanted, "That’s right, my Qi-ge, is the best husband in the world. I can bask in his glory and live a prosperous and comfortable life."
Yuran chuckled, "Actually, what you want to ask me about is the balance, isn’t it?"
Huo Qi: "...Can you read minds?"
Yuran, "No, but if you’re willing to open your heart and give Ao Chen another chance, you might get an unexpected result. I’m not speaking for Ao Chen, but you should understand me, so my thought is, you can try, try with Ao Chen, and then try with yourself."
Huo Qi sighed, toying with the teacup in his hand, "It’s not that I don’t want to, I’m afraid if I give my heart one more time and then never be able to love again if it dies. What I intended wasn’t a quick start and end with Ao Chen but a long-lasting relationship with him."
Yuran raised an eyebrow, "That’s a good indication. You should start dating some young new guy and see if Ao Chen goes crazy for you. Ao Chen took your feelings for granted and let you down before, so everything he’s suffering now is what he deserves. Don’t go easy on him, consider it teaching him a lesson."
Huo Qi: "...When it comes to being ruthless, I’m not as good as you. When I broke up with Ao Chen, I was devastated for a long time. For the first three days, I prayed for him, but Ao Chen was so heartless he couldn’t see how upset I was, letting me wait alone at every event he appeared. When he loved me, it was like that; when he didn’t, I was less than grass beside him.
Yuran, you know I wasn’t gay, but Ao Chen turned me into a gay, and then he left me alone, self-destructing. I don’t want to blame him; when there was love, he was really good to me, but love is fleeting. Once it’s gone, he was particularly willing to hurt me."
Yuran heard the sorrow in Huo Qi’s words, a sorrow that was not feigned, nor was it in the past, but a sorrow that couldn’t be overcome.
Huo Qi always brooded over how Ao Chen could be so cruel to abandon him and then rapidly withdraw from his world, leaving him alone in a foreign place.
It was precisely because Huo Qi didn’t want a too swift ending to his second chance with Ao Chen that he now resisted giving Ao Chen a firm answer. It was not for himself but for a better step back for both of them.
In case, Ao Chen never changed.
It would allow him to save face, not to be abandoned unprepared like the last time.
Huo Qi couldn’t withstand being abandoned a second time.
Yuran understood him well, "Do I need to convey your thoughts to Ao Chen?"
"No need, personal realization is much profounder than being told by others. If Ao Chen can’t figure it out himself, then I think, there’s no need for us to reconcile in this lifetime. If he can be with someone else for a long time, I will also bless them.
It’s just that we weren’t meant to be."