"You really intend to do this?!" Rong Shaoze’s eyes darkened, and suddenly his anger surged to the heavens.
"Do you want me to marry her? Didn’t I tell you to trust me, not to let your thoughts run wild! Do you still not know how I feel about you? Why do you still think about pushing me toward another woman?!"
A glint of cold fierceness flashed through his eyes as he grasped her tightly into his embrace, his hands gripping her waist firmly, and he asked coldly,
"Lin Xinlan, just how sincere are you towards me? Am I so easily discarded by you?"
The last sentence was uttered with a touch of sorrow.
Lin Xinlan looked at him calmly and said evenly, "You are quite strange. Didn’t you want me to trust you? I trusted you and even blessed you. What else do you want?"
The man was momentarily stunned, then quickly understood.
"I..." he scratched his head in agitation, greatly annoyed, "I was just joking with you, and you took it seriously."
Lin Xinlan suddenly laughed, "I was also joking with you."
"You lied to me?!" Rong Shaoze’s temper flared up instantly.
"What’s the matter? You’re allowed to lie to me, but I’m not allowed to lie to you?"
"... Alright, we’re even then. But, is that really what you think?" he asked, not giving up.
Lin Xinlan turned the question back to him, "Is that really what you think? Deciding to fulfill your promise by marrying her and then divorcing her?"
"Of course not! I will only marry you, even if the whole world spurns me, even if I carry all the sins, even if someone threatens me with a knife to my throat, I will not marry her. I admit I have indeed wronged her, but I can’t marry her out of guilt. I don’t love her, I can’t even give her a shred of tenderness, not even as charity."
Lin Xinlan sighed inwardly.
As the woman loved by Rong Shaoze, she should be the luckiest and happiest.
But a woman who falls in love with Rong Shaoze is doomed to be the most pitiful.
"What are you thinking about?" The man pinched her chin, his dark eyes gazing deeply into hers.
Lin Xinlan didn’t evade and smiled, "I’m just thinking that love should be the most selfish of feelings. I clearly know that Du Ruoxin is your fiancée, and I know I am wronging her, but I still can’t bring myself to give you up to her. Rong Shaoze, am I very selfish? I find that I’ve become a bad woman, and I actually hate this version of myself."
"Don’t allow yourself to hate yourself! Xinlan, you are very selfish, and I am very selfish too. But, I like your selfishness, I love your selfishness a lot. If you were too great and selfless, and gave me away to another woman, that’s when I would hate you, detest you! Your selfishness is a virtue, keep it up, I love watching it."
His words were too amusing, and Lin Xinlan couldn’t help but laugh out loud.
With that laugh, the mood wasn’t as heavy anymore.
Cupping his face, she laughed, "My selfishness is built upon your selfishness. If you gave up on me, I would naturally give up on you too. Rong Shaoze, it’s because you never thought for a second about giving up on me that I can be so brave, to be selfish for love."
This man loved her so deeply, how could she bear to hurt him for someone else.
So, she was willing to be a selfish and domineering woman, she wouldn’t hurt him.
Life is so short, she couldn’t look after everyone, but she only wished to truly love the person she loved and not waste a single moment.