Every time he faced her sad eyes, he felt so guilty that he wanted to escape.
He owed her too much, yet no form of compensation seemed to work.
Only if he remembered her and fell in love with her could he make up for everything he owed.
But this, he had no control over...
Lin Xinlan reached out to hug him, burying her face in his chest, and asked sullenly, "Rong Shaoze, tell me, why did things turn out this way?"
"..." The man’s thin lips pressed together slightly, not knowing how to reply.
Tears of sadness slipped from Lin Xinlan’s eyes, soaking his shirt, "You clearly said you would love me for a lifetime. I also thought that you would love me for a lifetime. But why did you lose your memory? Why did you forget about me... Could it be that our fate is so shallow that we can never be happy together?"
Her sorrowful words touched something in Rong Shaoze’s heart.
He knew that once, they both truly loved each other.
But now, besides letting her down, there was nothing he could do...
He slowly raised his hand, hesitated for a moment, but still gently hugged her.
This hug had nothing to do with love.
It was just a simple, warm, comforting hug.
"I’m sorry... I think I’ve lost my heart, I can’t even find my own heart..." Rong Shaoze said in a low voice.
"Although my heart is still beating, I feel emptiness inside, there’s nothing there. This heart doesn’t belong to me, I can’t control its beating, nor can I feel its existence..."
He mumbled an explanation, feeling that such an explanation was too weak and powerless.
The heart merely facilitates the circulation of blood in the body, it is not a container for holding things.
Changing a heart, could it really erase all of a person’s feelings?
Such a notion was too far-fetched.
However, the heart is a mysterious thing; the feelings change when the heart changes.
He couldn’t explain why the heart was so mysterious.
Maybe he felt empty inside simply because he had no memory, so his heart felt empty.
Rong Shaoze closed his eyes for a moment and said, "In the end, the reason I forgot you and have no feelings for you is because I lost my memory. Xinlan, if you’re willing to wait, I think I will eventually regain my memory one day..."
This was the first time he called her name since he woke up.
Lin Xinlan’s heart trembled slightly, she hugged him tighter and took a deep breath, "Of course I’m willing to wait. I promised you that no matter what happens, I won’t leave you, never."
Even if you don’t love me anymore, I won’t leave you...
Rong Shaoze also held her tighter, a slight smile curling at the corner of his lips, "Thank you for not giving up on me, but I will still respect your choice. Because forgetting you is indeed my fault."
Lin Xinlan shook her head firmly, "There’s no other choice, my choice is you!"
She looked up and said anxiously, "Unless... you fall in love with someone else and plan to marry another woman and live with her for the rest of your life, otherwise I won’t leave you!"
Rong Shaoze’s gaze deepened.
He felt a significant pressure inside.
Considering the current situation, he could only fall in love with Lin Xinlan, or he could love no one.
But he was worried that he might not be able to fall in love with her and might fall in love with someone else.
If that scenario played out, when he regained his memory, he might go crazy.
"I promise you, I will try my best to fall in love with you, and I will never easily fall in love with someone else!" he said solemnly.