"You must answer to…" The two of them held their hands tightly. Xia Jinyuan wrapped her hand entirely in his huge palm. He squeezed it as he tried to pass strength to her. "You must answer to the uniform that you're wearing. You need to answer to the hope that the country has for you. You cannot waste the effort the military unit took to groom you!"
When she realized that her targets were the same age as her, Ye Jian almost gave up. This was normal. It was a process that everyone had to pass through. However, Ye Jian suppressed this thought and took the shot in the end.
She knew that if she chose to give up, her comrades might be the ones getting killed.
This thought made her pull the trigger without any hesitation.
"Ye Jian, don't use your kindness in the wrong places. The major general strongly agreed to let you take part in this war but do you know why he did that? He trusts you. He believes that you'll become an outstanding soldier who can fight together with us."
This was a bad mindset. He must stop her from thinking ever again. He needed to let her know that once she wore the military uniform, she was not alone!
Ye Jian had been closing her eyes all these while. She opened them and looked at Xia Jinyuan. Under the red illumination from the flames outside, she could see the firmness in his eyes as well as encouragement.
There was no anger or disappointment. He was encouraging and helping her.
The earpieces weren't turned off so everyone heard their conversation. They were all waiting for Ye Jian to speak. Ye Jian needed to convince herself. This wasn't something that other people could help her with.
She needed to overcome her own obstacles.
Ye Jian didn't reply immediately. She was breathing heavily. She knew that logic. That was why she still shot even though she knew that the person was a child.
That year, when Xia Jinyuan appeared in her classroom, Zhang Bin whispered to her, "His gaze is so scary. I bet that he killed someone before."
What was her reply then?
She said, "Even if he killed someone, they must be bad people. He is a soldier. His job is to protect the country. The people he killed must be people who deserved to die."
That was what she said but she knew that personal experience and talk were different. However, the belief can't be changed. The moment they wore the military uniform, they were soldiers. Their mission was to protect the country.
She didn't kill anyone innocent. Even if they were the same age as her, they were the ones who shot at her comrades first.
They were members of the al-Qaeda group. No matter what their age was, they were her enemies.
Her breathing slowed down. She took a deep breath. Her gaze turned firm as she looked at Xia Jinyuan who was still staring at her intently. "I understand. Thank you, Q King."
She didn't call him Captain Xia or Xia Jinyuan. She called him Q King. He was her comrade.
"There's no need to thank me. I'm just reminding you. You are the one that can help yourself." He smiled lightly. His low voice made Ye Jian felt warm. "Have some rest. You'll feel better after some sleep."
This mission was the only mission where they didn't have to care about the after battle clearance. The Pakistan government would take care of it.