"it means that you came to me two fucking years ago, weak and fucking broken. I was a good friend to you, I helped you get over how much those bastards hurt you and then we had to come here and I actually thought the first day when you brushed Ethan off, that you weren’t going to fall back. But there you go now, you as good as forgave him, giving him smiled and thinking of how ADORABLE he is." I stared shocked but he continued "After all he did to you that’s what you think about when he comes to mind. Soon you’re going to go running back to him like a silly little mate and go back to being the pathetic, Naive girl you were and still are and he’d going to hurt you again and you’ll come crying back to me. You think you’re tough lux? well you’re not. Look at you now, going back to the mate that rejected you. Fucking pathetic"
He finished and took a deep breath while I stared at him in shock and the others stared at me.
It wasn’t after a few minutes did Adrian finally talk "Xavier that was harsh man I--"
"No don’t" I interrupted him, keeping my eyes on jason who I noticed had a hint of regret in his eyes. "I guess the truth is finally out"
Xavier didn’t say anything, his whole body stiff "You know i actually believed that two years ago you were the only one who didn’t see me like that: Pathetic" I let out a chuckle "looks like I was wrong. How long have you bottled this all up for Xavier? Since i came to your house? I bet Ethan was just the tip of the ice burg." I shook my head and laughed dryly. "God I am such an IDIOT"
"Must be a load of your back to finally tell me what I am in your eyes." I said through clenched teeth. "Well let me tell you something Xavier. You don’t know a thing of what I’m going through." I walked closer to him "Imagine having those god damned tingles every time you touch someone and have to pull back. " I took another step "Imagine fighting with your wolf every fucking day because she wants nothing but to forgive him and freaking jump him each time she sees him" Another step "Imagine watching someone else walk out of their room in their clothes and know that he prefers someone else." I said remembering Whitney, I hadn’t told them about it so i heard a few gasps and intakes of breath, Xavier gulped "Imagine being forced to hear comments about mates knowing your own rejected you" I twas now face to face with him"Imagine knowing that in two years not once has he tried to search for you because all you were to him was a pathetic naive silly little mate" I "ed him and he flinched.I pulled back and looked at him, not with just anger anymore, with hurt.
"And now Imagine, that above all that, after learning to at least block him out so you don’t get hurt. Your own friend, one of the few people you depend on and trust" I took a shaky breath "ends up being the first one to hurt you since you came back" I bit my lip and shook my head. I walked past him but stopped but didn’t turn around just tilted my head backwards and glanced at him
"Don’t worry I won’t be a Problem to you anymore. I’m sorry I was such a burden I never realized" with that I walked away leaving them all behind.
I ran towards the pack house not wanting them to catch up. I ran through the living room and stopped dead in my tracks when three large figures blocked my path. Peter, Alan, and Ethan.
"Wow where’s the rush?" Alan asked.
"lux what’s wrong?" Ethan asked taking a closer step towards me, no i couldn’t deal with him, not now. I pushed past them and ran upstairs to go to my room. I spotted Keith coming out of his room.
I don’t know what came over me at that second but when Keith saw me and looked at me alarmed, I couldn’t help myself. I ran to him and hugged him.
I wanted to cry, I felt like crying, but the tears wouldn’t come. I don’t know why I couldn’t cry but I was shaking with hurt and anger and in seconds, after recovering from the shock, Keith hugged me back and brushed my hair soothingly.
I felt myself being lifted from the floor and laid on a bed. I didn’t argue and just kept holding Keith as he wrapped his arms around me and said comforting words. He didn’t ask what was wrong and for that I was grateful. he seemed to really know what to do.
I felt my eyes close as i got sleepy and right before I fell asleep i thought
who would have thought in the end Keith would be the one comforting me?
"Don’t worry I won’t be a Problem to you anymore. I’m sorry I was such a burden, I never realized" She said walking away.
Oh shit. Oh shit what had I done? How could I say things like that to her?
Before I knew it I was running to the house after her only to be punched and sent flying on the dirt.
"What did you do?" A very angry Ethan stood in front of me, his eyes black, his stance stiff. Who did he think he is? He has nothing to do with Lily and me. The source of thɪs content is noveⅼfire.net
"I’d kick your ass for that but I don’t have time for you" I said getting up but he blocked my path to the house.