"I-" I couldn’t form a sentence as thoughts twirled in my head. My walls were crumbling and it scared the crap out of me as I thought back to the way I was when I first left the pack.
"S-sure" i said hesitantly and he smiled broadly and hugged me. I pulled back "I’m gonna go now" I turned and left the room, my mind still reeling. I knew I probably seemed weird to Ethan, seeing as he told me to wait but i just needed to think. I went back to my room to get my bag for school when I saw the twins on my bed.
"So what’s wrong?" Dave asked
"What are you talking about?"
Jim sighed "Why did you leave the way you did? To be honest the poor chump put a lot of effort in asking you out right."
"Who do you think helped him put all that fake snow in the room?" Dave winked "It was fun actually, we decided not to be mean to him since you guys are trying again but we did throw some death threats every five minutes or so"
"but that still doesn’t explain why you freaked out"
"Who freaked out?" I heard Xavier say from behind me "You know we’re going to be late for school guys"
"Who cares jay" Adrian said and throwing himself on my bed "one hour won’t kill us"
"you know it’s not about missing class" Jacob added, how the hell did they all decide to come in my room at once? "It’s about seeing a certain mate"
Xavier actually blushed and I laughed "Someone’s in love" I teased Nᴇw ɴovel chaptᴇrs are published on NoveI-Fire.ɴet
"I marked her last night" Xavier admitted "Said she was ready"
I grinned at the happiness in his voice "I’m happy for you Jase"
"And your changing the subject" Dave said "Why’d you freak out"
"Of course you didn’t" Jim said sarcastically "S-sure" he copied me and I sighed "That was really enthusiastic"
I shrugged and walked to the side of my bed and grabbed my bad "Come on let’s not be late for lover boy over there"
"Naw it’s okay Ren’ll understand" Xavier smirked crossing his arms and I huffed and threw my bag back down, they really weren’t going to back off. Xavier noticed my sigh of defeat and closed the door so no one would hear us.
I sat on my bed "It’s just...I don’t know it’s kind of scary guys" I said easily it was always easy talking to my guys, I didn’t mind showing them a weak side. "Things are going fast and I...I may fall for him if I haven’t already. I’m going soft"
"We’ve noticed" Xavier said with a smile "I think that’s a good thing. Don’t get us wrong, we love kick ass Lily. But going soft means your actually not distancing people your scared of"
"But it also makes me vulnerable to get hurt" I admitted staring at the ground "It means he can hurt me now. What if he’s not serious in this? What if he changes his mind? what if he decides he wants some one else? What if-"
"That’s a lot of what ifs" Jacob commented "And you know we’d kick his ass for even trying to hurt you Lily"
"But the damage would be already done" I said "I’m scared"
"Look it is scary" Adrian said "And though I don’t really like him Lily he seems to be genuine. You have an opportunity to be with your mate a lot of people don’t" I looked at him and saw the pain that’s always in his eyes "And we know you, if you push him away now there’s going to be a whole lot more of what ifs."
I stared at Adrian and knew he was right, he knew exactly how much it hurt to not have your mate with you. And the worst part is he didn’t know anything about her and I knew it tore him apart everyday. I stood up and hugged him "You’re going to find her soon Adrian, I feel it"
he chuckled "Sure hope your right" he stood up and cleared his throat "Now come on let’s go to school before alpha over there dies of anticipation"
Xavier growled playfully and I laughed as I stood up grabbed my bag and headed to my bike but surprisingly saw Ethan standing in front of it.
"I...Uh...I wanted to go after you but the twins stopped me." he said and then looked hesitant before adding "are you regretting saying yes about the winter formal?"
I took a deep breath remembering what the guys told me and stood on my toes and kissed him, he immediately responded and I pulled back before it deepened
"Did that answer your question?" I asked and he chuckled and planted a soft kiss on my lips
"See you later" he said and headed to his car as I got on my bike and drove to school.
"You guys did WHAT?!?!" Melissa yelled as I told the girls about my date with Ethan while we were in the library at lunch. The librarian glared at her and I hushed her up
"We went on a date" I said "What did you expect after he marked me"
"HE WHAT?!?!" She shrieked again and the librarian shushed her this time
"At the party, you would have known if you you went" I told her and she shrugged
"Parties aren’t my thing"
"Well I think this is amazing" Ren said grinning "I’m so happy for you Lily"
"What about you?! I heard someone got marked last night" I sang and she immediately blushed "Xavier’s been walking around like a love sick puppy grinning all day"
She giggled and then looked nervous "I’m scared for about the heat though"