Shen Weiyi suddenly felt very sad. She hadn’t felt this way during the breakup, or when she had decided to leave alone by the sea, but at this moment, looking at the person before her, there was an indescribable discomfort, as if something was being ripped from her chest with a tearing pain.
Her nose tingled, and tears welled up, but she quickly pushed them back.
Shen Weiyi lowered her head, not letting the other see her moist eyes, and said, "No one is indispensable to anyone forever. Like you said, we’ve been together too long, and you’ve just gotten used to having me around. In time, you’ll get used to days without me."
"I won’t," Jiang Zhiyi shook his head, "I don’t want to get used to not having you. I just want you to come back, to be by my side."
Shen Weiyi pulled her hand away and looked at him seriously, "Jiang Zhiyi, we can’t go back."
They could never go back!
"No, we definitely can, we can return to how things were."
"Don’t be ," Shen Weiyi said. "I don’t like you anymore."
Jiang Zhiyi stiffened, his face turning ashen.
Despite feeling reluctant, Shen Weiyi steeled her heart and said, "You know me, with my personality, once I like something, I don’t let go easily. Since I decided to break up with you, it means that I don’t like you anymore. I used to cajole you, indulge you, because I still liked you, but your willfulness, your recklessness made me wonder if I was wrong all these years. Did I make you think that whatever you do, I wouldn’t be hurt, I wouldn’t mind?
But that’s not true. I get tired too, I doubt too; do you like me as much as I like you? Otherwise, why would you repeatedly disregard my feelings just for your own pleasure? Truly liking someone shouldn’t be .
Later I realized, two people should be together to make each other’s lives better, to make everyone happy, not just one person being happy. So, I don’t want to like you anymore.
Being with you, happiness was real, but so was anger and discomfort. I don’t want to carefully protect your sensitive, fragile heart anymore, nor do I want to always make myself uncomfortable. So, let’s let each other go!"
"It’s not like that, I just..." Jiang Zhiyi desperately wanted to explain something.
Shen Weiyi interrupted him, "You just want to prove that I care about you. But what about you? Have you ever cared about my thoughts and feelings?"
"You haven’t, you always care only about your own feelings, living in your own world. You only want to see me revolving around you, but you’re not willing to change even a little bit for me. That’s not liking, that’s obsession, it’s selfish possessiveness. True liking considers the other’s thoughts, cares about their feelings, and pays attention to their mood at all times. You’ve done none of that."
He was just too concerned about her, too afraid of losing her. There were so many people who loved her around her, and he only had her by his side. He just wanted her to care about him a bit more.
He just wanted to use this way to prove that she cared about him.
But he had ignored her feelings, he had recklessly hurt her, using her care for him.