Celeste checked my pulse, the silence has been more prominent ever since, Nicklaus haven’t said a word to me since he called for Celeste, he was there beside me but he seemed further away, perhaps what we needed right now was some space, that realization just struck me now even though I didn’t want to admit it, I had no other way to see it.
Suddenly fed up with the silence before it would get more awkward... I had a feeling that I might lose my mind if I didn’t speak and Celeste was overly concentrated on my pulse. I cleared my throat. "I never knew you were such an expert in this," I said.
Celeste smiled, meeting my gaze. "Well, I learn a lot of things since I have the time" she mused.
I smiled, obviously, she had all the time in the world, she was yet to find her mate and didn’t seem to want to, I had a feeling she enjoyed more time alone than spending it with someone. I was about to speak again so that I would at least engage in conservation with her.
"Celeste" Nicklaus finally uttered. "Are you able to find out what’s wrong?"
Great so he preferred to talk to his sister other than me.
"There’s nothing unusual..."
I had a feeling she was about to say more and it couldn’t be good, I still couldn’t get over that hot feeling I felt, if Nicklaus’ temperature hadn’t cooled me down I wondered what could have happened.
"...Except her Fox powers are coming back"
"What?!" Nicklaus and I hissed simultaneously, my eyes wide like saucers, so that’s why... this explains everything.
"Well don’t be too alarmed, the Fox is a part of you, although I do not know why the Fox blood is being awakening for you’re Mortal now"
"Is it bad?" I asked with trembling eyes, fearing for the worse, for once being Mortal in this current state actually scares me.
She looked towards Nicklaus and then I faced him demanding an explanation. He spoke this time, at least to me.
"As the name implies, your body cannot handle the Fox blood, the Fox part of you is a very strong essence, powerful, as a goddess, you controlled it and harnessed the power to full capacity"
"And now?" I asked eagerly.
"You can’t Yelena"
At his confession, I sighed heavily. "W-What happens now then?"
"We will have to find a way to stop the blood from taking over or else it will be fatal" Celeste intoned.
Stop it? But that part of me was trying to resurface by unknown merit, but I can’t let it happen because my body can’t handle it?
"I will do some research until we find a solution... until then do not let the Fox power take over"
"How am I to do that? I don’t have any control"
"Will"
"Will?"
"Yes will, use your will Yelena... that should be able to push it. The Fox is a powerful part of you, that doesn’t mean you can’t control it, you must do it in your own way, that’s all I can say"
I sighed. Control it with my will?
"The Fox part just as it is with our beast, we will it but it gets out of control when we are with our mate"
My eyes trembled. "Then..."
"Yes", her eyes meet Nicklaus.
"I might be the cause of your Fox blood awakening," Nicklaus said.
"But we do not know for certain... YET" she intoned, rising to her feet. "Nicklaus’ temperature can calm you down. Do not worry I will find a way"
I smiled giving her a nod, I was really thankful for her help, she smiled before walking away. The door slammed shut, it was just Nicklaus and me now and the awkward silence was back, I could hear only my heartbeat at this point.
"You should rest," he finally said. I gulped, forcing a nod, he made no effort to touch me, and neither did I. He allowed me to lay down, and then he pulled the covers against me. I felt him lay behind me but not too close but I could feel his breath at the back of my neck.
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"Are we still..." I began in the dark. "Are we still going to see the Realm tomorrow?"
"If you want to" his answer was short and simple, was he really not gonna hold me? My eyes fell sad, the distance I silently do not want was happening, and I wondered if I should reach for him myself, but he does not seem approachable, the heat of our last talk was still on, I could still feel it even without it being said I could see it in his eyes, he was thinking about it as do I and we both had our own views which only made a harder.
He considered having a child insignificant and I thought it like a blessing and the next step to being a wife. And there was the rift about not procreating, it only makes it harder, for none of us was ready to accept both views now.
"I don’t feel well... maybe some other time," I said faintly as I forced my eyes shut, at the prolonged silence he didn’t say a thing, he was the one who suggested such an outing because we barely had time to see each other and I ruined it, and I couldn’t feel but guilty but I had no choice, we were not in good terms and going to such would only cause more pain.
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"I don’t feel well... maybe some other time", her words were so faint but he heard her loud and clear. He wanted so badly to reach for her and hold her in his arms, he pondered the fact but that wasn’t a good idea, she was still upset about their last talk and he didn’t want to deepen her wounds, he couldn’t give her what she truly desires and it was something he didn’t need.