His dark hair turned white entirely due to old age, his clothes were... his clothes weren’t worn out like they used to, it was clean and okay.
My papa indulged himself with some printed paper like he always does to know what was happening in the society, and it was afternoon, he should be at his mining job but then it dawned on me.
Just like the Empire promised when they took me away, he will live and be compensated, compensated! How could I have forgotten that? He wasn’t lean or tired like he used to be but he was.. okay.
A smile found my lips, the tears sliding down my cheeks.
"Papa," I said, sobbing.
I couldn’t express how happy I am, he was okay and comfortable, that was more than I could ever ask for.
For a minute he paused his reading, staring into the skies, I could see the longing in them, and worry, I knew who he thought of and I miss him just as much.
I felt something cold turn my cheek, not my tears but, a hand? I turned as Cedric used one of his fingers to wipe my tears.
Cedric showed me, my Papa, even though I thought he wouldn’t because he has disrespected him, was this a way of showing me? Of telling me he was sorry? even though he didn’t say it in words, I just had a feeling he was.
My brown eyes were glued to his green ones, none of us bothering to look away. I haven’t even realized we were back to the ground, our gazes still on each other.
"Thank you" I finally broke the silence between us.
"For showing me my papa", I really was, I never knew Cedric would have a soft spot, maybe Lawrence was right maybe he does have it, maybe there was more to Cedric Hartford I didn’t know about, beyond those walls he put up around himself away from others maybe just maybe there was something warm lying beneath something I wanna know other than his dangerous side.
His hand rested on my cheek, I didn’t flinch at the action, my chest was only just warm from his touch, I stared into his eyes that held curiousness and within them was emotion?
His thumb gently stroked my cheek, I closed my eyes at the action, loving his touch against my skin, my lips went apart slightly as I gave in to the feeling.
I slowly opened my eyes back, his green orbs still on me and intense, not moving away even for a minute, I was beginning to wonder what he was thinking.
"Cedric," I said his name softly.
I saw his Adam apple move when I called his name, did it affect him?
His hand moved to my chin, tilting it up in a swift action, my eyes trembling, my heart slamming fast.
I was eager to find out what he was thinking, but I couldn’t find anything. I searched his eyes for answers but nothing.
His gaze fell on my lips, his thumb tracing it, I shivered at his touch as a blush creeped up my cheeks, my gaze shyly looked to the floor.
"Don’t look away!"
At his sonorous voice the hand under my chin raised my face up, I gasped because right now he was leaning down, our faces inches apart.
Was he planning to kiss me? All our kisses until this point had always been accidental or one-sided, I was beginning to ponder how it would feel if we were both into it, how would it feel? I was eager to find out.
I could feel his breath against my face, it was warm and sent a tingling sensation to my body, I closed my eyes awaiting his next action, my insides rumbling with anticipation.
Then I felt his lip brush against mine, it wasn’t a kiss, it was just like a mere gesture, I was wondering what he was planning to do if not a kiss, maybe I should open my eyes.
But then suddenly I felt him nib my bottom lip with his teeth, I froze at the action, my eyes not daring to open again. But the feeling of his teeth gently gracing my lips was ecstasy, I remembered the time he gave a slight lick to my neck, the imprint in my brain. I wondered how his tongue would feel on my lips or any part of my body.
I moaned at the thought, forgetting myself, I no longer felt his teeth but this time his LIPS!. They sucked the bottom of my lip, I gasped at the sudden wet rub, and then his lips locked with mine.
His mouth roamed mine like he owned every inch of my mouth, his tongue gaining entrance to all parts of my mouth and lining my teeth. He was taking dominance, I had no power in this, he explored the contents of my mouth with just his bidding leaving me helpless.
It was so hot, just not in the kiss but my own body, my legs were weak. I wondered if they would give out, his dominating kiss gave me shiver and a strike of desire that filled my body like a wave washed upon me.
I wanted to taste him too, he shouldn’t be the only one to taste me, and just as I went on my tiptoe he pulled away leaving me breathless.
His eyes weren’t green anymore but completely dark? I didn’t see the light in them anymore and it sort of scared me, where has my favorite color gone to?
He shut his eyes, turning his head, his jaw clenched hard.
"C-Cedric"
"You should go," he said so quietly that I almost didn’t hear him, his hand was off me before I could even blink.
"I have things to do", his eyes open but they didn’t look at me.
The words he said like what just happened between us was a dream, was it? Because it suddenly felt that way, the cold shoulders he gave me.
I would lie if I said that didn’t hurt me, but I should still know that I shouldn’t expect much, I bit my lip in regret, maybe I shouldn’t have let him kiss me, this was a mistake.
Hurt and angry I turned on my heels meandering away, for a minute I paused turning, he still didn’t even look at me.
With sad looks, I walked out of the room.