"So this is you being good, hm? Gav –"
"Hush now, please," Gavrael cut her off again, his overbearing voice now sounded a little pleading, "You need to sleep."
And Evie could only sigh a little petulantly. He was cuddling her so closely to him that she could still see his face but somehow, she was glad he could not see her face right now. Honestly speaking, she was actually more than a little disappointed with how things turned out. She had initially thought that the moment she saw Gav's blue eyes, the two personalities would have finally merged. She thought they had finally become one and were now sharing the same memories and experiences as they should be.
She thought that the fact that Gavriel accepting Gavrael's existence and coming to terms with his other self would be the key to solving their dual identities. But it seems that that alone, was still not enough. What then would it take to finally solve this? Though she was doing her best to act as though everything was alright, and somehow she was able to keep a neutral stance between them, she was still actually very much troubled over this issue. And she knew that despite all the acceptance, this situation would always be complicated as long as the two of them keep having two different sets of memories and experiences. It would always, always feel as though something was not quite right as long as they continue to keep switching places like this.
Shutting her eyes close, Evie felt his grip on her tighten again so she too tightened her own hold on his hand and rubbed little circles into the back of his hand with her thumb. He loosened up a little when she did that. She could even feel his whole body relaxed from its initially tighter hold on her.
With a slight smile lingering on her face, she opened her eyes again. She just could not bring herself to go to sleep. Despite the long distance of travelling and their intense love making session just a while ago, it was strange how she still felt so energetic and not even a hint of tiredness at all. Lately, since she had arrived in the Under Lands, she began to feel as though her energy was overflowing. And she had taken note that the longer she stays here, this energy just seem to keep growing more and more. It was as if her energy reserves are being expanded and getting larger over time.
She did not pay much attention to it at first and just thought that it must be because she had not been using her magic at all, since she had arrived here. It has been a while since the last time she had used her magic. Also, on top of that, her thoughts were occupied not only by her husband's situation and this upcoming war but with other matters as well.
Since the moment she had heard about mating bond, that the dark faes actually do have mates, she could not help but keep thinking about it. Her mind kept dwelling on that particular topic specifically. She had tried to stop herself from thinking about it, but she just could not. King Belial and Queen Beatrice were mates. Gideon and Vera too… how about Gav and her?
Gav was a half dark fae too, that means he would also have his destined mate, right? Yet nothing of that sort had happened to them. Does this mean… Gav had yet to meet his fated mate and… it was not her? When her train of thought arrived at this possibility, she felt her heart wrench in such a way that it was even more painful than a physical cut being made on her own flesh.
Her eyes closed tightly, wanting to shut it out of her mind. She really hated it when that thought came to her. Because she could not explain what she felt every time she thought about that. She could not … accept even the mere thought of it. How was it possible that she was actually not even Gav's mate? No! There was no way this could be true… she would not accept that!
"Evie?" Gav's voice echoed next to her, and Evie realized that he had already rolled her over again and now his gorgeous face was hovering over hers. His intense blue eyes staring down at her with a worried look. "What is it?" he asked seriously.
Evie blinked. Oh no… Did Gav realise what was on her mind? Her mood must have plunged so low that he was even alerted to her behaviour.
"I… nothing… I was just reflecting and thinking about something." Evie tried to force a natural smile, but Gav's expression did not change at all as he scrutinised her without speaking. He did not move to coax her to speak. He just stared at her with that dark, dejected expression. And somehow, Evie could already tell what he was probably thinking and feeling right now.
"I'm going then," he said sullenly. His bright blue eyes dimmed a little before lowering it from her face.
As expected… this man!! Evie truly was torn in between wanting to scream out in exasperation or laughing out loud at how this man was behaving so childishly at the moment.
"No, wait a moment. I'm –" she quickly started explaining, trying to avoid the misunderstanding from getting worse.
"He's the one you need right now. I have no idea what to do to help make you feel better except..." he trailed off and quickly looked away, his jaws clenching a little.
Suddenly, Evie pushed him down and he fell back on the bed. His eyes were wide as he looked up at her, shocked at how she had knocked him back so forcefully.
"You, silly, silly little beast." She sighed and Gav's eyes widened even more, not understanding what she meant.
Did she just call him 'silly LITTLE beast'? What the hell was LITTLE about him? This woman…