137: Chapter 43: Everyone dislikes themselves, everyone fears losing 137: Chapter 43: Everyone dislikes themselves, everyone fears losing …
Bubbles floated upwards in a string, like transparent jellyfish.
Water surged from all directions, drenching her from head to toe.
She couldn’t close her eyes, and the contact with the water felt uncomfortable.
Water also entered her ears, clanging loudly.
There was so much water, she choked on it, feeling unbearable discomfort.
Her body sank downwards, while the air rose above.
The bubbles drifted further and further away from her.
She tried to reach out for the air, her left hand clutching her neck, her right hand paralyzed, powerless.
Downwards, downwards.
Unable to breathe, the discomfort was indescribable, she couldn’t move, a different kind of pain compared to the one in the store, this time it was a physical torment, thinking became increasingly difficult to sustain, this was, she was now…
In a flash of Spirit Light, she realized her predicament.
She was going to die.
After coming to terms with this, her thoughts miraculously became active again, perhaps a gift from God bestowed upon humans, only to be enjoyed before death—a bit of mercy.
Memories flowed before her eyes, the time she parted with her family, when she was brought to the City of Skies, living alone, scaring away or eliminating anyone who dared to disturb her, living a dreadfully dull life, then meeting Gongsun Ce and Mo Yuankai, meeting the senior doctor, still very dull.
She tried to find people who needed help, offering her kindness.
She managed to help some, but they left uneasily.
She couldn’t help others, who didn’t need help.
A few that she got along with left after a few days too.
It repeated continually, failing time after time, even she became utterly disheartened, then she found a dirty little boy.
She met Shiyu Lianyi.
Someone was willing to stay by her side forever.
She wasn’t that lonely anymore.
Gongsun Ce also became easier to get along with.
They formed a small group.
Friends began to multiply.
The days afterwards passed in the blink of an eye, and her memories suddenly jumped to today, to this moment.
Now she was going to die.
She wanted to smile, to die looking a bit prettier, but she couldn’t.
The expression on her face must have been dreadful.
Truly pathetic, claiming to protect Qiluo, and yet failing in such a place.
Her hat also floated up, like the bubbles, fluttering away from the dark depths of the water, drifting towards the light.
She wanted the rapidly changing scene to stop, to take one more look at the happy memories.
The flow of memories halted, and she saw herself in high school.
It was an activity of the Astronomy Club.
Though called an activity, it was just a few students from different grades, sitting in a small classroom after school chatting idly.
A senior came over to chat a few times and stopped after being rejected.
The club was quite boring, but it was quite fresh for her first time attending such activities.
She was determined to make the club more vibrant, so she earnestly prepared several activity plans, purchased new equipment, planned to observe stars from high-rise buildings in Dragon Head District, and contacted college professors for guidance…
Each proposal only made everyone wince.
The senior grimaced and said the current club activities were fine, the club didn’t have much budget, and nobody wanted too much hassle.
She thought they were just making excuses, lacking passion.
She created a fifth proposal, this time considering the other club members’ free time and the remaining club funds, a flawless plan suitable for everyone.
The club president didn’t even look at it before pushing the plan aside.
He seemed angry, sighed heavily, and provocatively suggested that the next activity should be karaoke or simply going to a nightclub, which everyone agreed to.
Their attitude made it seem as though she had done something wrong, and their noisy opinions were particularly annoying.
She got angry too, utterly disappointed.
So, she set the whole classroom on fire.
The incident with the Astronomy Club turned the page, and her high school memories continued.
She saw the thug who came to flirt, the classmates who gossiped behind her back, the girls who spread messages, and many more annoying people and events…
She took care of them all with a fire.
After that, not many students dared approach her.
She saw herself angrily asking Lianyi why everyone around her was so boring, and Lianyi responded with a bitter smile, saying nothing.
Lianyi knew the answer wouldn’t make her happy.
She had always understood why she had so few friends.
Her personality was terrible.
She always used her superpower to solve everything.
People called her the Red Lion.
She hated this nickname, she extremely disliked being addressed with similar labels.
Because she knew the nickname was accurate.
She was irritable, neurotic, arrogant, self-centered.
Always had self-absorbed expectations of others, and whenever other people weren’t as “interesting” as she imagined, she would hysterically create chaos like a beast that thrived on violence.
In the end, she would mess everything up and scare everyone away, sitting alone amidst ruins, secretly feeling sorry for herself.
Thankfully there was Lianyi.
Lianyi always tolerated her capriciousness, accompanying her to various places, never complaining.
After being with him for a long time, she really thought she had changed.
Not so capricious anymore, matured, easier to get along with…
until today, her true colors showed.
After throwing a fit, Lianyi was also blasted away by her.
Just because he made a joke, just because things didn’t develop as she imagined…
That became their last meeting.
She didn’t even have the chance to say sorry.
She had indeed changed, not for the better, but became weaker.