His life was too successful, to the point that it fostered his proud and aloof character, giving him a confident assurance in everything he faced.
So, back then, his foolish self didn’t take emotions or marriage seriously.
Some people say that in matters of the heart, sometimes you only learn to cherish it after losing it.
He thought that perhaps he had fallen into this ridiculous curse.
"Yisen, we can just be friends. I’m very satisfied with the state between us."
Some things are difficult to reclaim once lost, like emotions, and also like marriage.
Qin Munni lacked the courage to give Xu Yisen another chance by going back to the past, fearing she would repeat the previous mistakes.
She had been hurt so much that she was very afraid, very afraid, so in the end, she chose to let go, to give herself the chance to heal and start anew.
Xu Yisen closed his eyes again, avoiding her hurtfully resolute gaze.
"I will wait for you, until you change your mind."
"Yisen, you’re always so self-assured. You never consider what I want, always viewing things from your own perspective.
Do you think your sudden epiphany will move the me who loved you for years? No, I’m not moved at all; instead, I find your behavior very childish.
Do you think your relentless approach and waiting will make me change my mind? No, Yisen, I think you will never understand what it’s like for someone to toss and turn at night, feeling lonely and scared to the point of needing sleeping pills to numb oneself, all thanks to you.
Yes, it was my wishful thinking back then, insisting on a self-destructive love, and later being covered in scars was my own doing, irrelevant to you.
But Yisen, now that I’ve finally come to my senses, finally given up, please don’t try to stir me again and again.
I no longer have the courage or strength to turn back, and I don’t want to repeat the same mistakes, so please find a better girl to love; we’re impossible."
Every word from her mouth carried a slight tremor, with her beautiful voice holding pain that had yet to heal.
As Xu Yisen opened his eyes again, meeting her slightly mist-covered eyes, his heart couldn’t help but twitch with pain.
Qin Munni’s rejection left him no room for struggle because he was the jerk who had pushed her away initially.
He slowly sat up, sat cross-legged opposite Qin Munni, and gazed into her eyes filled with unwavering persistence.
"Munni, I am sorry for all the harm caused to you in the past. Please give me a chance to make amends."
He humbly begged Qin Munni, yet Qin Munni looked at him with an unchanged expression.
Just as she was about to speak, Xu Yisen beat her to it.
He said, "I am a man who is not good at expressing himself, who is dull, and low in emotional intelligence. Thank you for not disdaining me and for being so good to me for so many years back then.
I am also very sorry for realizing your importance to me so late. My desire to be with you, to remarry you, is not a fleeting impulse.
I just... want to spend the rest of my life treating you well."
These ordinary yet sincere words were all heartfelt; he liked Qin Munni more than he had imagined.
So, he didn’t want to lose her.
So, even though he knew Qin Munni disliked his entanglement, he still stubbornly wanted to fight for it.
Qin Munni shook her head, "Don’t be silly."
The simple three words rejected him once again.
She supported herself off the ground with one hand, stood up, and looked down at Xu Yisen, "I’m going back to my room to rest."