Chapter 647: Chapter 644 Jealousy (4)
In the evening during rest time, Bo Yan sat honestly on the edge of the bed, hung his head, and admitted his fault, “I was wrong. I shouldn’t have been so careless.”
“Was that really carelessness?” Don’t assume that Xia Siyu is always naive and actually treat her like a fool. Xia Siyu’s intuition was very sharp. She could distinguish whether Bo Yan had been careless or had done it on purpose.
Bo Yan glanced at her and added, “I shouldn’t have thrown your phone into the hot pot.”
Xia Siyu was furious, “Why did you throw my phone!”
Bo Yan dared not admit it was because he was angry about the gift from Qin Baizhou, so he could only say, “I was jealous.”
“You were jealous my ass! Tell me, why would you be jealous of a phone?”
Bo Yan defended himself staunchly, “You refuse to have children with me, yet you adore someone else’s baby so much, flaunting pictures, even saying you might have a baby with another man in the future.”
Xia Siyu, enraged, rushed over and yanked his hair forcefully, turning his sleek black hair into a tangled mess, “Are you sick! Don’t you know what our situation is right now? I’m twenty-seven now, my goal is acting, how could I possibly consider having children? I don’t want to give up my career, my career is my top priority, only when I have succeeded without any worries will I consider leaving the industry to have children!”
Bo Yan remained calm, “I know, I’m not in a rush, I’m just hoping you can give me a chance. Whether it’s five years, ten years, or fifteen years, I’m willing to wait.”
Xia Siyu bluntly said, “Bo Yan, I know you really like me now, but I haven’t made up my mind to be with you for sure. We’re just allies right now. We have a common goal and a common enemy. Of course, I must admit, we get along well in many ways, so I don’t mind maintaining this relationship with you. But as for children, I haven’t even thought about it, it’s completely not in my plans. Even in the future, I will consider it very carefully. You really like me now, but will you still like me in five years, ten years, or fifteen years? Don’t rush to make commitments; I know that today you like me, but tomorrow you might like someone else. You like me now because I’m beautiful, right? But what about when my youth is gone? I might say that even at eighty years old, I’d still be the most beautiful old lady. But that might not be true in your eyes.”
Love is fluid, hormonal, dopaminergic, not everlasting and unchanging. Love has its peaks and valleys and can change over time, with every argument, big or small.
She couldn’t guarantee someone else’s affection for her, but the one thing she could guarantee was that she would always love herself the most.
Even if others looked down on her, she would never look down on herself.
She couldn’t even promise that even if Bo Yan still loved her in five years, ten years, or fifteen years, would she still like him the same way she does now?
Enjoy the moment while it lasts; they were happy together now, wasn’t that enough? Why bother thinking about the distant future and a child?
She enjoyed playing with kids, but that was because they were other people’s children. She only needed to have fun with them. But if they were her own, it wouldn’t just be about having fun; it would be a responsibility.
Xia Siyu’s pessimism about family and children was also because of childhood trauma.
So what if her parents were in love? Didn’t her mother’s life still end in tragedy? And her relationship with her father, Xia Youbiao, wasn’t that irreconcilable?