He knew that even if she was in pain, he wouldn’t give her the drug. Yet, his heart would be in great agony. Her pain was his pain, but amplified.
"How do you know it will be after ten days? Oh, was your first episode ten days after your initial dose too?" Mo Ran asked calmly, her face void of any nervousness or concern.
"Mm-hm." Gu Yixuan knew she was purposely putting on a relaxed front so as not to worry him.
"Ranran, don’t worry, the first time won’t be that painful. I’ll be with you, just bear with it and it’ll pass. But, you absolutely must not take it a second time, understand?"
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Moreover, at that time he didn’t know he had ingested Black Angel. Even the second time he took it, he was unaware it was Black Angel.
It wasn’t until a month later, when his body had recovered considerably, that he learned it was Black Angel.
But by the time he wanted to regret it, it was too late. Truth be told, Black Angel, after even one dose, is nearly impossible to kick, and he had taken more than two or three doses.
The reason he couldn’t quit was partly because Black Angel is indeed hard to give up, and partly because he had no one to care for and hadn’t planned on living long, so he let himself continue taking it.
But now things are different. He had found his Eternal Love; his life was no longer meaningless. He wanted to live a good, long life and not end his life prematurely.
For Mo Ran, he decided to quit Black Angel. She was the motivation and strength that kept him going.
Mo Ran nodded earnestly, "Don’t worry, I won’t take it again in the future. However, I don’t regret this time."
"You might not regret it, but it breaks my heart." Gu Yixuan pushed aside her long hair, looking at the bruise on her neck, and asked softly, "Does it hurt?"
Mo Ran touched her neck, her smile nonchalant, "It doesn’t hurt. Is there a mark? Some ointment will do."
"I’m sorry..." Gu Yixuan lowered his head and gently kissed her neck, repeating his apology.
He detested his former self, how could he have had the heart to strangle her.
The thought of having nearly killed her in his distress filled him with fear.
"Ranran, I’m truly sorry. I will never hurt you again, there won’t be a next time."
"I know." Mo Ran understood him, knowing that he had acted that way unconsciously.
Although Mo Ran didn’t blame him, he still felt a heavy sense of guilt.
As the fear within grew larger, Gu Yixuan’s body began to tremble.