He hung his head, and Gu Yixuan tried to take her hand. Seeing that she did not struggle, he held on tightly. Newest update provided by novel⁂fire.net
"I’m sorry, I was just blinded by jealousy. I’m the one you love the most, and I can’t accept it when you neglect me for someone else. Even less can I accept that you would delay our marriage for another person."
Tears were swirling in Mo Ran’s eyes.
She took a breath, her voice choked, "Have you noticed that whenever we face difficulties, we stand firmly by each other’s side, protecting one another? But the moment doubt and suspicion arise, we end up hurting each other. Because of Gao Zhenzhen’s issue, I doubted you and became angry with you. Now you’ve started to doubt me and get angry with me because of another man. Tell me, Gu Yixuan, is our love solid as gold, or is it fragile and ready to break?"
Her words threw him into turmoil.
"Of course, our love is solid as gold! If we didn’t deeply love each other, how could we have made it this far?"
What fragility, what nonsense, that can all go to hell. He firmly believed that their love would continue growing stronger and it would never diminish even in the slightest.
Mo Ran turned to look at him, her tone weary, "If that’s the case, why do you doubt me?"
"In the end, you don’t completely trust that my love is real, do you?"
"Even if I stay by your side all the time and tell you I love you every day, you’re still not reassured, right? Actually, I can’t blame you. You’ve never let go of me, giving me all the best things, saying only I am in your heart, but I’m not at ease with you either! I always suspect that you have feelings for Gao Zhenzhen, and you’re always doubting the depth of my feelings for you. What’s wrong with us? How can we reassure one another? How can we achieve complete trust and understanding? Tell me, what do I need to do so we can reach that point?!"
Gu Yixuan’s face was pale, holding her hand tighter and tighter. After a long silence, he slowly began to speak.
"I don’t want to doubt you either, and I want to fully trust and understand you. But the more I love you, the more anxious I become. It’s like there’s a huge black hole inside me, no matter how much you love me, no matter how good you are to me, it just won’t fill up. Ranran, I’m so greedy, never satisfied, and I really hate this part of myself..."
A teardrop broke free from his eye, hitting the floor and making a ticking sound.