751 Stopping Making a Mistake at the Last Minute
“Madam Ji.” Qiao Xi could not lift her head. Her eyes were slightly red and she did not dare to look at Shen Hanxing. She had not slept at all last night and her eyes were swollen. She looked haggard and her head was muddled. She felt guilty and embarrassed. What was she thinking about last night? What did she almost do? She actually wanted to take the opportunity to get close to him while he was drunk… How could she be worthy of him? She was just a piece of mud on the ground, yet she dared to covet the bright moon in the sky. Moreover, Shen Hanxing was her benefactor, yet she was ungrateful and coveted her husband!
The more Qiao Xi thought about it, the more ashamed she felt. When she felt Shen Hanxing’s warm gaze, she almost cried on the spot. No, she couldn’t cry. She was a cowardly, despicable, and selfish person. She didn’t dare let Shen Hanxing know about her dirty thoughts. She could only curl up in a corner and digest these dark emotions by herself.
She held back her tears and gave a deep bow. She said with a sobbing voice, ” Thank you for taking care of me during this period of time. I’m really grateful to you. Thank you for giving me a job. I’m very happy and I want to move to the staff dormitory…”
“Why? Are you not happy staying in our house?” Frowning, Ji Qian asked, “Qiao Xi, can you not move out? We…”
“Ji Qian.” Ji Ning pursed her lips and tugged Ji Qian’s hand, shaking her head. “Wait until Qiao Xi speaks her mind.” She felt that something had happened, but she didn’t ask and only looked at Qiao Xi in concern.
“I… It’s not appropriate for me to stay at the house.” Qiao Xi laughed with a pale face and whispered, “Also, it’s more convenient to go to work if I live in the staff dormitory. I can sleep longer.” Her mind was blank, and she did not even know what she was saying. She only knew that she had listed a few reasons, but she did not know if they were convincing. She wanted to keep saying them and use these good excuses to cover up the real reason. She was too ashamed to continue living with the Ji family. She was also afraid that if she stayed, she would one day lose control of her sanity and let her ambition and jealousy grow like weeds. Last nigh, she had stopped herself in time, but how about next time? She wasn’t sure she could manage to do the right thing next time.
Qiao Xi shut her eyes tightly as her eyelashes trembled. The more she realized how dark and dirty she was, the more difficult for her to face the Ji family’s concern and Shen Hanxing’s gentleness. She was ashamed and felt as if every inch of her skin was being burned.
“Ji Qian, Ji Ning,” At this moment, Grandma, who had been silent all this time, suddenly spoke in her ancient voice, “Qiao Xi isn’t a child anymore. She has her own thoughts. Don’t try to persuade her anymore.”
“Old Madam…” Qiao Xi eyes were red, and she couldn’t help but look up at the old lady. She bowed again. “Thank you for taking care of me all this time.” She did not have any elders who cared for her when she was growing up. The time she spent with Grandmother was very precious to her.
Grandma sat there, her aged face expressionless, but her eyes were filled with wisdom that had settled over the years. It was as if they could see straight into one’s heart, and it made one’s heart skip a beat. But Grandma did not say anything. She only nodded at Qiao Xi and patted her on the shoulder with her wrinkled hand. “The world outside is so big. If you go out more, life will get better and better.”
Upon hearing this, Qiao Xi couldn’t hold back her tears and cried, “Old Madam…” What right did she have to receive so much kindness? Why couldn’t she be satisfied? why did she fall for the person she shouldn’t have?
“It’s not like we won’t be able to see each other in the future.” Shen Hanxing looked helpless. “Why do you make it sound like we’re going to be separated forever?”
“That’s right! Qiao Xi, you’re always welcome to visit us in the future!” Ji Qian, whose eyes were also red, clapped her hands and said, “You’re trying to trick me into crying!”