“You seem very happy to be engaged to me, don’t you?”
Lin Qingya was quiet for a moment before she said, “If you want an honest answer, I’m very happy.”
Gu Chenyi’s expression suddenly grew icy.
“Chenyi, I don’t think I need to say this aloud. You can feel it. I like you. Even you would know that, if I had really wanted to leave that day, I would have thought of some way to escape. But I didn’t, I stayed and became your antidote.
“I won’t deny, in those moments, I had my selfish reasons, but I’ve never thought about putting the responsibility on you! If you do not wish to get engaged, we don’t have to. I know that both your grandfather and mother want this child, so I will carry this child to full term and hand it over for the Gu family to nurture. Whether you wish for the child to know of my existence or not, it’s all up to you. Is that alright?”
“Really? Do you really have no other desires?”
Lin Qingya smiled bitterly and said, “If I say it’s true, would you believe me? So it’s not about how I answer this question. Rather, just do what you want, and the facts will speak for themselves whether my words are true.”
Gu Chenyi looked at Lin Qingya and did not say another word.
“Chenyi, there is someone else you like. You should know how it feels when you like someone so much that you’d do anything for her. And how you feel about Xiao Huan is no different from how I feel about you. So it’s alright if you don’t trust me, and it’s alright if you don’t want me. As long as you’re happy, you can do whatever you want!”
Even though Lin Qingya had said all these words with utmost sincerity, that iciness in Gu Chenyi’s expression did not dissipate.
But he did not pursue asking further questions.
After a long pause, he suddenly said, “From now on, I will no longer like Mu Huan. Since I’ve decided to be responsible for you, I will do it wholeheartedly.”
Lin Qingya widened her eyes in disbelief. “Real… really?”
“Whatever happened in the past — whatever — whether you were the one who did these things, no matter what your intentions were, I will do my duty as a husband, as long as you behave yourself and be a good wife and mother.”
“Chenyi… Chenyi… what do you mean by that?” What did he mean by whatever happened in the past — whatever — whether it was her who did these things?
“I think you know what I mean. But if you’re unwilling to mention them, or if you are unwilling to admit to it, it doesn’t matter. You just need to remember what I said about behaving yourself and being a good wife and mother and that will be adequate,” Gu Chenyi said with little emotions.
As Lin Qingya looked at Gu Chenyi now, she suddenly shuddered!
She no longer saw in this young man before her now the sunshine and optimism that he used to wear on his face.
This young man now…
How should one put it?
He was like a thick mist, impenetrable in his thoughts, unreadable in the things he said.
Had he seen through her or not?
This person now put her nerves on the edge.
Just as she had found herself relaxing, she was now anxious again.
“Chenyi, I really don’t know what you mean by that. But if you want me to be a good mother and wife, I will work hard to be one! I will work hard at the things you like!”
Gu Chenyi looked at her and suddenly started laughing.
It wasn’t a joyous laughter.
It was the type of laughter that made Lin Qingya very nervous and sent her heart thumping with fear.