She gave a thumbs-up.
Zhi Chen frowned, "I admit that Shu Yu is one of the reasons, but that is merely personal to me."
Dong Huiying was skeptical, "What do you mean?"
Zhi Chen said, "Shujun, Haoming, Yue Ning, how those guys treat you, do you truly feel nothing at all?"
Dong Huiying paused, then bowed her head in deep thought. "They... treat me well?"
Zhi Chen nodded, "Since you can feel that..." Before he finished, she interrupted him again.
"I know they are good to me," her eyes were empty, in that moment, it was as if Haoming had possessed her, "However, just as I have just asked, their kindness, their care for me, how much of it is true, how much is false?"
Zhi Chen was taken aback; she probably understood that the real reason she left was not solely because of Yixuan, but because..."You think that all of us were using you?"
Dong Huiying sighed, "My relationship with you all was forcibly meshed together. With so many things happening in the past, it’s only right that you hate me, after all, the harm wasn’t fake. Yet I’ve also tried very hard to make amends. I thought I could gradually change your perception of me but... obviously, some things don’t repay your efforts no matter how hard you try."
She forced a casual smile, "As a ’Doctor,’ eh, ’Doctor’? As a ’Doctor,’ I will do my utmost to heal my patients; it’s my professional ethic. But Yixuan was worried I would revert to my old ways, so he wanted to use himself to tie me down before any resurgence, so that, as long as I chose him, I married him, even if I truly reverted, he could use his own sacrifice to free the other five. It’s a rather profitable deal. However, as the one he’s calculated against, I..." she frowned slightly, "am not too happy about it."
"He made me realize that everything in the past, can’t be changed by just my own transformation. Even if I completely renew myself, the past hurts still exist. As long as I am in the Liang family, he, and others, will always be in fear, always worried about the future, and living like that is truly too tiring."
Zhi Chen was speechless. He probably understood her thoughts by now.
This was the real reason that drove her away, the person was too kind-hearted; she believed that her very existence was a mistake. As long as she was there, their brothers would never have peace of mind, forever living in the shadow of past pain and burden.
Zhi Chen pondered, "Some things might have come late, but even though it’s late, it has still arrived. I think Yixuan probably regrets it deeply. Your transformation is evident, and it’s undeniable that we harbor those worries, but there’s a condition to it."
Zhi Chen’s eyes flashed like lightning, suddenly bursting with a cutting brilliance: "Our unease is because we don’t understand why you changed. You never told us, ever since that mudslide, you’ve had amnesia, can’t remember the past events."
Dong Huiying opened her mouth in astonishment.
Zhi Chen continued, "So for us, that is a mystery. For something unknown, unclear, we cannot be at ease. And this only proves one thing, we don’t trust each other enough, don’t understand each other enough, so some things stay hidden in our own bellies."