She didn’t go back to the Inn.
She kept walking towards the forest with a sad smile on her face, trying her best to not let her tears fall as she remembered what her prince was shouting at his subordinate.
After reaching some distance, she sat on a large rock, bringing her knees together to her chest.
In the end, no matter how well she behaves with anyone, no one really wants her.
No matter how docile and how many things she bears, no one wants to deal with her.
Elliana smiled, rocking herself back and forth to calm the raging ache in her heart.
She didn’t know it would hurt so much. She always knew it was the truth. Everything that the prince said, she had already thought about it at least ten times.
And thus, she didn’t know it would hurt so much. It was like a large wave of sadness that was trying to drown her in an endless abyss.
It was harsher than getting a beating from her stepmother, or when Madeline insulted her in front of everyone in school.
Maybe it was because those people were bad from the beginning and she never expected anything good from them.
It was indeed true. The higher you rise, the stronger you fall.
Her heart also plummeted to the ground now.
It felt what being cared for feels like and that’s why when it started to feel something it shouldn’t, fate reminded it again that this is where it belongs, in the darkness.
And just when she thought she could fall for the darkness too, it was morning, and reality sunk in. Elliana smiled, a lonely rogue tear falling from her eyes, and she sniffed softly.
She held her fist over her chest to stop the raging emotions, her fingers coming in contact with her locket.
She picked the shining locket, her eyes tearing up at the only Momento she got from her mother.
’Mom, why did you leave me? Was I really a curse for everyone? Nobody wants me, Mom. You didn’t want me either, no? If I was really that bad of a curse and child, why did you bring me into this world? Why didn’t you drown me in some lake?
Did you hate me so much because I reminded you of that dark night that stained your life? You wanted to see me suffer too, no? Is that why you threw me away the first chance you got?’ Elliana said to the locket, breaking down.
She closed her eyes, wanting to let out her emotions in just any way.
’It’s about to fall apart,
My heart is shattered.
I am sorry, you were everything to me,
But I was just a curse, turning you berserkkkkk.
And when I think I could get another chance at love, you betrayed meeeee.
Now I am left alone...
I am breaking down,
My heart is shattering into a million glass
I am breaking down, put me in a trance...
It’s my fate, destiny, a curse full of miseries,
Lack of love, empty life, no compassion, and full of worries.
I am breaking down, so just do me a favor and end my lifee....’ Elliana sang at the top of her lungs.
The sound of thunder clapping echoed in the sky as the clouds rumbled with her anger and sadness with herself.
’I am breaking down!
Won’t you end this curse?
Or just leave me inside my memories,
And end me....
I can’t fall apart, it’s getting hard...
Just end this misery,’ Elliana sobbed.
Every tear that fell from her eyes, fell down from the sky in the form of rain.
The thunder and lightning became more intense, and she smiled remembering what Yaretzi had told her. Her emotions will always affect the environment around her if she can’t control them.
Elliana smiled. She doesn’t care. If she is broken, the world should be too. Why should she always think about others when they never thought about her?
Meanwhile, in the Himalayan castle, Arizona sat inside her room, cooped up near the windows as her eyes teared, feeling her daughter’s pain.
She sniffed, looking down through the window with tearful eyes.
’I never hated you, my child. If only I could show you how much I love you. Please forgive your mother. She can’t be with you and love you like every mother. I yearn to get close to you too, my love. But I can’t,’ Arizona closed her eyes, a lone tear falling from her eyes as she looked at her daughter, sitting in the downpour, looking so broken and lost.
’I wish I could hold you in my hand too, my precious doll. You have no idea how much my hands yearn to hold your hand, feel that skin against mine. I want to act like a real mother too,’ She took a deep breath, extending her hand towards the window, wanting to wipe her daughter’s tears.
But she knew she can’t.
’I want to cook for you, go shopping with you, tie your hair too. But if I as much as got close to you, your life would be in danger, my love. I have to stay away from you if I want to keep you alive,’ Arizona sniffed, feeling her heartbreak with her daughter’s tears.
’If I had a choice, I would leave my kingdom for you, my love. I would do anything to see you smile freely, but I am selfish too. It is hard on you, I know, but I want to see you live. I can’t let my daughter die. No,’ She sobbed silently, placing her hand on the window towards the sky.
As soon as Arizona did that, the heat from her hand, and the powers of her sadness, struck a lightning out of her hand that fell on a glacier, cracking it.
’If only I could touch you, my precious. Even a lifetime of apologizing would be less to make up for what you have to go through because your mother was selfish. It has never been your fault. It was always your mother’s,’ Arizona whimpered.
’That night if I hadn’t promised that lady in exchange for your life, and then the siren powers hadn’t been locked inside you, and you weren’t the princess of the witch kingdom, probably nothing of what you have been going through would’ve happened.
You would have lived happily in the kingdom, married to Nath. So I am the one to be blamed for everything. Because I exchanged your happiness for your life. I am sorry for everything,’ Arizona sobbed, hiding her face behind her arms.
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