He went over. Instead of eating, however, he sat beside her and watched her gulping down the food he got for her.
“You eat too.”
He Xiyan turned to look at him. Knowing that he was sad though, she did not ask anything.
Mo Yixuan simply watched her eating, just like what she did to him before. At that time, he often worked overtime. When he came back, she would prepare him midnight meal and snack and then sit there watching him eating and chatting with him. She would ask him if he was tired or if he had met any trouble in work. She would also get his bath water and clothes prepared.
From the day they affirmed their relationship, she had always taken good care of him. However, he then had never put his mind on their love relationship, nor had he paid any attention to her. He simply got used to her kindness to him as well as her companionship.
Mo Yixuan suddenly reached out his hand and grasped her wrist tightly, looking at her deeply as if to find a trace of love and affection she used to have for him from her face.
“Yanyan, tell me, if you have not met him, will you come back?” Mo Yixuan’s voice was low and hoarse, from which his long hidden pain could be heard.
He Xiyan was startled, the pair of chopsticks in her hands dropping onto the ground with a clang.
She turned her head to look at the man beside her, her eyes full of feelings beyond words. She shook her hand, trying to shake his hands off.
However, Mo Yixuan held her hands even tighter and his eyesight became more urgent, because he really wanted to know the answer.
If she hadn’t met Ye Hao, would he have the chance to chase her back?
He Xiyan did not know how to answer him.
She turned away, looking at Yuanyuan in the bed.
It took a long time for her to say lightly, “Let go of me.”
There was a trace of helplessness in her voice. This kind of question meant nothing to her at this time, and she did not know how to answer either. After all, there was no “if” for her.
“Tell me. If it weren’t for him, would there be any possibility between us?” Mo Yixuan asked again, in a firm tone.
He Xiyan felt great pains in her wrist which was held tightly by him. She pressed her lips tightly and pulled back her hand with much strength.
Turning her head, she looked at Mo Yixuan, her ex-husband, eyes full of regrets and helplessness, saying quietly.
“Mo Yixuan, we are really unsuitable, really. So don’t bother with such question. It doesn’t make any sense.” He Xiyan sighed and continued, “I pursued you at that time because I didn’t know love then. After that, everything I did for you was because I didn’t know how to manage a marriage, so I was then treating you and your mother very well without any reservation.”
“It’s my fault, Yanyan. You are not to blame.” Mo Yixuan closed his eyes painfully. What she said was like a knife cutting his heart.
He sighed deeply with thick hoarseness in his voice. In fact, it was he who really did not know about love, nor did he know anything about how to manage a marriage. That led to his loss of a warm home and a love relationship that could have been very beautiful.
All of this was his fault, so now he had to suffer all these pains, including watching her marrying someone else and calling someone else husband.
He Xiyan shook her head helplessly again, with a bitter smile hanging on her lips.
She had also reflected on that love relationship, and even reviewed many times of herself.