Just like Shao Cheng has mentioned to Ren Yuan, he just needs a little bit of time for himself and soon he will be able to get himself back, after all, handling a mental break down after an extremely hard planned with horrible sacrifice was something he has dealt with especially early on in his previous life.
So getting back on his right mind and handling his mental health issue along with the memories swirling on his mind was something he was able to handle.
Which then it felt like something has punched his guts when Shao Cheng finally remembers how he treated Ren Yuan a few moments ago, something that has almost drowned him from overwhelming guilt and remorse of what did he just do.
Shao Cheng shouldn't let the Ren Yuan on his memory and the way the present Ren Yuan has been indulging him lately affect how he treated the older man, it just so hard sometimes, when it felt like everything is still the same, that Ren Yuan will continue to indulge his rather nasty and bad side.
After all, he has strangely become Ren Yuan's entire world in his previous life despite how horrible they treated each other while he has been obsessively trying to kill the man.
This isn't the same world anymore, he should learn quickly about that, Shao Cheng shouldn't be greedy, selfish and self-indulgent with his approach when he interacts with the older man, there is a line that Shao Cheng shouldn't even try to cross with.
"Urgh this is my mess up life"
Grabbing his head, while ignoring the rather obedient Purple which before he knows it has finally come back while he decided to float over and stay on top of his head, although the constant thoughts and ideas of what the man's reaction about what happened are far more important right now.
Is the man mad? Did Ren Yuan decide that he isn't worth befriending for?
Or not worth getting acquaintance with? And finally, choosing to break off their friendship?
After all, Ren Yuan has always spoken about him being annoying and troublesome...
Shao Cheng head throb in another different type of pain as the constant horrible and dreadful ideas keep flashing his minds, it didn't help at all that anything can happen because of Ren Yuan's nasty personality of being unpredictable and changeable opinions.
Most of Shao Cheng life, he has never cowered and bravely faces every problem that comes his way, but when it comes to Ren Yuan, much to his dismay, Shao Cheng will always act in a completely different way when it's about him and this time, he was shamefully unable to face the older man right now.
And to his shamelessness, Shao Cheng didn't hesitate to use his special power to spy about how Ren Yuan is currently feeling, and if he were to be lucky, he might be able to read and know about how the man will deal him.
Especially, when Ren Yuan can be all alone right now and might be showing his genuine true face and expression thus easily deciphering what Ren Yuan is truly thinking about, after all, it was only a few minutes after Shao Cheng's mental break down.
So with that plan on his mind, Shao Cheng has close his eyes and began to spread his senses, and very slowly, as he tried to find the familiar presence of the older man along with his purpose of looking for Little Chen Yu life auras, Shao Cheng was finally able to find the two of them together in the same place.
In which Shao Cheng has soon connected to Little Chen Yu which was a completely easy thing for him to do, unlike when he hast tried to do it to other animals from before during the time that he wanted to quickly eradicate those people that has been hunting them so persistently and stubbornly.
And the connecting to Little Chen Yu was just like when Shao Cheng has been using the little bluebird in his previous life, which is something that he will definitely tuck in the corner of his mind to study later on.
In which Shao Cheng has finally registered that he has been in one of the secret places that Shao Cheng wasn't allowed to just barged in, which was the meeting room where Ren Yuan handle important matters, even Shao Cheng understand about that decision of banning him from getting inside while not being hurt by the lack of trust.
After all, no matter what suffering and hardship he has done to keep them safe and sound, there is no way that Shao Cheng will be easily and quickly can get to their inner operation, especially when he was younger among the rest of them while seemingly a person that doesn't know how the world work and added to the fact that they don't even know his real name yet.
Ironically though Shao Cheng is currently inside the banned meeting room that he isn't allowed to be in, its just that he is currently using Little Chen Yu, while the little wolf cub with only beginning to have intelligence has been sleeping deeply in the corner of the body-mind space.
And from what Shao Cheng has observed before connecting his mind on Little Chen Yu and becoming one with the little wolf cub, he is currently laying on top of a soft fur while he has been placed upon a desk that is currently viewing the unpredictable dark face of Ren Yuan that was sitting in a chair while Xing Ning and Tian Ying stand before him.
Letting out a sleepy yawn as he was affected by the body that he was currently using, Shao Cheng has gotten Ren Yuan attention as the man's expression turned a bit soft for a split second before it returned unreadable.
Although the gentle scratch on his chin from the older man has almost cause Shao Cheng to let out a comfortable whine which embarrassingly didn't happen, there is no way that Shao Cheng will react sweet, docile and gentle to Ren Yuan, even if he is Little Chen Yu at the moment.
However soon, the suddenly doubtful and suspicious voice of Tian Ying reaches Shao Cheng ears causing him to move still.
"... Ren I couldn't help but feel that Whitey was the cause of it"
What's wrong this time? Shao Cheng couldn't help but groan at the forbidding emotion he felt at those ominous words of Tian Ying.
Can he get a break? Shao Cheng just finished his mental break down...